About Dad

in other words, words, Dad, Alex. he was so insecure about my male College associations. he was so way high above them as a husband and friend to me and Ian. as a Canadian he had the habits of an armchair intellectual. he had his flaws. But he had a few years on them. He … Continue reading About Dad →

Berks County

When i was living in a small, rented house in Perris, California, after a second abortion of a baby with my husband, I longed to be churched. I did not feel called to the churches of Southern California. I longed for the people and places of Berks County, Pennsylvania, where i lived for 4 years … Continue reading Berks County →

About Feldman

I ranted about Feldman and complained about him and made fun about him because everybody did. I did it in a really serious way because I was in a really serious condition. Unspeakable. I am talking about Dr. Alan Feldman who worked in Largo, Florida back in the 2000's. He was a very kind and … Continue reading About Feldman →

if you could see our eyes…

i am looking luke the usual depraved idiot i was because of the wart-mole thing on my face and the damage from being kneed in the crotch by him. He is looking straight ahead with loathing and disgust for me. was this the time that i went collectung fish guts from the river on a … Continue reading if you could see our eyes… →

Parting Ways

...with the Western World. Have new friends. Have my son and Ex-Husband.

abt shit

yes I knew as I was waking up at the Tower Unit of the Haven Hospital in Reading that I had been covered in shit after they pissed on me when they left me in the woods. Then I forgot and I couldn't remember anything. Except I remembered that I said "I think therefore I … Continue reading abt shit →

Amazing

Let earthquakes volcanos psunamis resound my sisters here n she aint supposed to be but she said something friendly amazingly enough. So lets let that be one brick to the positive And let all the bad go. maybe we can apply my own personal fix, dear, when the time seems right; and retroactively interpolate the … Continue reading Amazing →

Daisy Buchanon

I named my cat from Mass. after her. She came here to PA under terrible circumstances. My mother let her out and she got pregnant and when I came her she was just about due; she had four kittens. I wound up going to the state hospital with dread about her. There was a young … Continue reading Daisy Buchanon →

Florida oranges

The Florida light has an orange quality when you think of it. Or so it is for me. I was thinking of happiness and I thought of a deep orange sunset glow and of course it was Florida. In California it was pure gold streaming through the birch wood behind our house in (dystopic) Perris … Continue reading Florida oranges →

Special

At the state hospital you had to get used to men who got into fights and men who had killed people. This made it very difficult to return to society. i was in such a fragile condition. I got used to it there in a while in a bad way, it corrupted me, I used … Continue reading Special →