Its about Dr. Gross in Allentown 24 years ago. He just didnt understand. He saw it about the sexual OCD because I was carrying on with a male patient who had just been pulled from the river. Generally that's who I picked on, VULNERABLE PEOPLE LIKE MYSELF. Also because I had written a story about … Continue reading Road Kill
Category: Family
So. Allentown
2015? I was back in my apartment after dinner there with my mother, father, sister and her then husband. My sister and I had both gotten the exact same red hair dye and pixie haircut completely independent of one another. She had asked my mother not to tease her about it. Something happened there, I … Continue reading So. Allentown
About the OCD
First of all, Its going. After 33 years. Going back to when I really started coming apart, at the Lodge Program at Wernersville State Hospital in Berks County, PA, in 1987, when I was 26. Years later, I became acquaintainted with the Catholic Universal Prayer by Pope Clement XI which is very long and exhaustive. … Continue reading About the OCD
Egg yolks
OMG im so sorry. I apologized to the community last night; but it wasnt enough. I need to explain myself. About the overdose, not in 2016. But the one in 2014 (?) (2015?) When I was living in South Allentown. My father had moved me there against my wishes. I had wanted to move to … Continue reading Egg yolks
Needing the help
I've been picking up puzzle pieces, connecting the dots, dotting the i's and crossing the t's, resolving the disconnects; for a COMEBACK. This has been DECADES in the making. The disconnect I picked up on today that has everything falling into place is the urology appointment in Florida that got canceled because of a hurricane. … Continue reading Needing the help
My poor body
...is destroyed. At first, it was my wrists. Those little cuts bode ill for me in the most serious ways. Then, the OD at 24 ironically compounded the damage from being kneed in the crotch as a little girl because the routine catheter hurt. The most noticeable impact right away was that I couldnt feel … Continue reading My poor body
My Life
Right now my future daughter-in-law (that's how I see it) is a big part of my life. Unfortunately every time I turn around I step on her toes or she steps on mine and this has been going on for the longest time. She is Brazilian and I see that as significant and important about … Continue reading My Life
Human Beings
In California my ex and I made up the game "Who's the Asshole?" The winner got to walk away with the most attitude. Through that, I learned NEVER NEVER NEVER to use that word about a man. I lost my life over it twice. More recently, the game has been "Who's the saint?" That has … Continue reading Human Beings
About Harvard
Finally its past tense. I am held there now for hurting men. Because of the malpractice early in MY psych care that started on my leave of absence half way through my senior year, this never got addressed as it should have been. There was a very real reason for this abuse of men and … Continue reading About Harvard
About Evil
I posted yesterday about my baby's poor little eyes, how I was afraid I hurt him. Something evil happened. I loved him so much. He was like a little angel, gleaming pure white. He had almost died when he was born. But to me everything about him was so beautiful but, I couldnt pick him … Continue reading About Evil
Un.Bon.Mot 