The ultimate blog post; the 40-year procrastination list resolved. Numerous 40 year trajectories coming together as one all at once. I have posted numerous times in the last few days and it has led to a real watershed and the denouement of the most important struggle of my life. In a nutshell, I was stranded … Continue reading Finale
Category: Family
Drugs
That's what it comes down to. My brother, who has died, said that I was the worst drug addict he knew. Since I was 21 I have been the victim of a thrall with psych meds misprescribed. It was a 3 part question. First, the prescriver was not competent to treat me 2 times over … Continue reading Drugs
The truth is always better than a lie
My father thinks that I want to have sex with him. He thinks that all women secretly desire to have a sex with him. Maybe all men are like that. I couldnt know, because of my injured clit from being kneed in the crotch as a child. In college I hit my boyfriend on the … Continue reading The truth is always better than a lie
Connecting the Dots; updated
Well, its been a long time; but the water is finally well over the dam. Since Wernersville State Hospital in Berks County. PA, from a situation in 1988; where they didnt know me and I was held on a bunch of lies that I didnt even know. Then, I spent 2 years here in semi-recovery; … Continue reading Connecting the Dots; updated
Dentist, updated
At the state hospital, the first time, after the nearly fatal overdose, I took a vow of poverty. I was so I was so impressed with the beauty of this place and the loving community out in rhe rural wilds beyond Reading, PA on the way to Lancaster. There was a beautiful old park; the … Continue reading Dentist, updated
Performance Art
Performance art. That was something that went by with the 80s as I remember it. But that's was where I continued to inhere all these years pending ongoing psychoanalysis attaching to my old psychoanalyst in Cambridge. Mass., whom I touched based with now and again over the decades that followed after leaving. The 80s. I … Continue reading Performance Art
Election Night 3 going into early morning hours Friday
But, I am here to post for my own sake alone. Its all coming out through this election trauma. Me n my Dad. Were fighting like mad. He doesn't like to acknowledge it. He has until 7 a.m.; to move through this or I am moving out. Thats in one hour. I realized that he … Continue reading Election Night 3 going into early morning hours Friday
A Letter to Society
About where I've been and where I'm going. Picking up a huge puzzle piece this evening. About a summer evening in Reading, PA long, long ago. Two men on motorcycles; the Pagoda. Two sensual movies at the local theatre. A hot dark night. I lost my heart to a man there; never to return. So, … Continue reading A Letter to Society
screwed
With the press of a spacebar last night, my entire, long email to the nytimes disappeared. They are pretending that it is about protecting Trump, who is speaking tonight, because I compared myself to him. My Advocate Presidency. I said that he desperately wanted to be removed--at one point--just as I did as the undergraduate … Continue reading screwed
Race matters (2)
In college, I was dissociated from race matters. I was a very ignorant person. Because of my own, personal matters. I should not have been at an IV League University. A decade and a half later, I was renting a townhouse in Germantown, MD, a mixed race, "bedroom community" of DC; with my ex and … Continue reading Race matters (2)
Un.Bon.Mot 