Abt My Mother

I have to beg for indulgence toward her, I am thinking that she is still living. Please remember the picture I painted of her that I saw of her in my mind, running through a deep forest in a flowered dress terrified of being skinned alive by natives. It was so horrifying to me. I … Continue reading Abt My Mother →

Johns Hopkins

The malpractice of Johns Hopkins University Medical School Affective Disorders Unit is responsible for the chaos in Washington. Lipsey mentioned how they would follow me when I left and they did. I was in numerous situations significantly close to the government through my ex's work in Silver Spring, MD including work in the Beirut government … Continue reading Johns Hopkins →

My Mother’s Death

"Honor Thy Mother and Father" I have finally arrived at an understanding of these words. I used to think it was funny, a little bit of silly nonsense; because they didn't believe. Recently I encouraged my son to do this--to honor us--no matter how bad it was a lot of the time, because everything about … Continue reading My Mother’s Death →

Finally!!!!

The Titanic. That was what it was like for our marriage and our son's upbringing in Florida. Now we are here instead. Here is PA for me: the kitchen in the cottage here in PA ITS BEAUTIFUL!! with a glimpse of the new portable dishwasher. It works! But what I'm looking for here that I … Continue reading Finally!!!! →

Mother Advocate Finally Rests

no more wars Actually this would be how I was AFTER I recovered from my stay at the Horsham Clinic last year, at that time I was the "core on two stilts, a face neither man now woman; and how the ALIEN4 (thats what I called him at the beginning) turned me into a flesh … Continue reading Mother Advocate Finally Rests →

moving on

grqa What a day! My life has turned around on an apex I could never have seen coming. My son is talking. I had a horrible life up until his age, when I met his father. Then although it felt horrible it was beautiful. I thought I had the most beautiful mother in the world … Continue reading moving on →

Worth 900,000,000

lawsuit against Johns Hopkins University Hospital Affective Disorders Unit September 1994 documented in 7 pictures. thats it.

cats, ALIENS, saints, & angels

they're all real. i dont kniw whuchbus more impirtant. that cats are special beings; that Saints livr in Hewv3n snd havecspecialbp I wersbto in5e4dedevfor us; that angels are Heaf r bs Suoerpowers, also real4; and that ALIENS live ajongbud wndvshow th3mselv3s sometimes. im jot oermitt3dvtobedit thu (either ALIENSPEAK or WordPress wont let m

college personal essay, contd (see last post)

Then, I spent weeks writing about eight applications to all the top colleges. It was a work of love. I sent them just a few days before the due date which was January 1st. And I attached the essay to every one regardless of the question. The Yale interviewer said Yale probably wouldn't take me … Continue reading college personal essay, contd (see last post) →

hints and memories

i remember sitting n my bed in high school boarding school) eating candy from the machine, and being in SO MUCH PAi h i have finally figured this out. it was like an overwhelmingly intense ache, an unbearable feeling of absence... OBVIOUSLY, I had had an abortion just as i thought. Dunno about the timing … Continue reading hints and memories →