im understandin WHY. I inerfered with my cat Daisy and her kittens when i got out of the state ihospital. The first tme. while i was pregnant with Ian i had a nughtmare of giving birth to kittens. On the maternity war when they took the baby to be stabilized,, i had dreams of the … Continue reading new perspective
Category: Family
woman are born moralists
im finally realizing a womans place. My father quelled me with intellectual coversation all my life. Then i realized he was using my ideas in his own work. i have to remind myself, "Honor thy father." i enjoyed my conversations with my ex. He explained that Canadians are all armchair philosoophers. He waa able to … Continue reading woman are born moralists
Missing my ex
it took 10 years to be out of the relationship. I needed to change. I sent him emails every day and asked if it was okay. Every 3 months or so I got a one- word reply: "Yes." but I was very ill. I had a relationship in college that scratched the surface of where … Continue reading Missing my ex
praising Philhaven
It was a clean and spartan stay where I was able to divest myself of a lot of damage from what they did to me at Haven in Reading. I saw that a lot of people were quite happy there. I just wasn't a good fit. And its probably a problem in the industry to … Continue reading praising Philhaven
I once was lost…
my son among the alien4 and alien5 who have been here to clean up the mess from the 20th c. us, happy as we should have been, as follows: the name Ian is Scottish for John Alex Young in LA. 1992 happiness I may not have looked that way, but I felt that way. Isn … Continue reading I once was lost…
Me and my son incarcerated
a special person goes to jail I couldn't bear the thought. Meanwhile, i was incarcerated on an extended acute care unit after a horrible overdose and I couldn't do anything to help. I think that we are slowly losing those years (for the good). I just realized what used to happen to me when I … Continue reading Me and my son incarcerated
destroyed freshman week at Harvard
she took me with her to see the movie "Love Story," compulsory for incoming Freshman. We went to a party and two young men came to our door looking for me and found her instead. They invited her to a party. She hit it off with one of them and they dated through college. Actually … Continue reading destroyed freshman week at Harvard
Botch; cats have souls
not a botch protects me (am a botch) this is my cat Tanner flying at the porch window.
my mother
ashes to ashes dust to dust. if you did not die I do not know what to say. a luncheon at your favorite most expensive restaurant does not seem like the right send off and I am very glad I escaped going but look at all the trouble it's caused. Bernard used the word institutionalized … Continue reading my mother
Faith inventory at the present…
...is pretty 9ffbeat. I have struggled to find female rolemodels among the saints. I can only hope that the Lord approves my course--in the present--to imitate the course of Saint Mary Magdelan, who was a strong woman in the early church. I want to be a a strong woman for help and support generally for … Continue reading Faith inventory at the present…
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