inventory at age 60

well now that I have settled the sexual abuse issue--it did happen--I was caught up in the worst season for sexual abuse claims, the early 80's, it was a craze and still is. I just wanted to know exactly what happened and maybe I don't know all of it but I know two key parts … Continue reading inventory at age 60 →

the abortion

I was always so troubled about the first pregnancy and abortion. why would anyone do that? He said "Let me come deep inside you, say you love me until the end of time!" well I was not ready for that but he had me pinned down. I said to myself let it be of free … Continue reading the abortion →

HARD TIMES

I had the worst time in my life over the Charcoal + constipation incident. Something so frightening and so horrible happened to me. I wound up on a bed somewhere st LVH Cedar Crest behaving in a bizarre way and yelling and screaming. It was so raw. Im not going to try to explain except … Continue reading HARD TIMES →

Haven and Philhaven

Haven almost took my life but then for a week I loudly asked for an emergency discharge because I was getting so frantic from the "gaslighting" and just being on a short term unit for so long. They helped me by getting out of there to another facility for longer term patients. But I was … Continue reading Haven and Philhaven →

Illness

INCEST. in my family as in many others, this has been an issue. I finally figured that it was my brother who got me pregnant when I was 13, not my father.

SICK

my sister Claire is a very sick person. it happened to me and i know what it's like. but she needs to stop spending her time faking evidence for my father's uses against me. And herself. and interfering in my son's life.

a short life in pictures

Me, at 13, a nerd Kent Scool graduation 1979. I don't know where I am in this picture but I know that I was lost. It was a sad day for me. But the parties up and down the northeast coast for the next few weeks were thrilling. almost as exciting as graduating (a year … Continue reading a short life in pictures →

HOPKINS: the physical impact

over time the debacle of my stay at Hopkins became progressively more physical as my mother disdained me, restraining orders were filed, and the emotional stress and the climate in Florida were too much for me. I was so ill. My treatment of Ian was shocking. In ways that I couldn't control. And this pained … Continue reading HOPKINS: the physical impact →

gaslighting

I just looked up the meaning of this expression the other day .and I finally understand what has going on. Its a specialized form of harassment and persecution. I just looked it up again to be sure of myself. it is of concern to the American Psychological Assocation and it is described as the manipulation … Continue reading gaslighting →

photo

my beautiful bed, one that I can lie in. It's an old futon on a flat frame. I have to thank my father for funding this beautiful and healing project of completely gutting this old place and refurbishing it to my own taste. I just pray ny mother doesn't move back in and haul everything … Continue reading photo →