there is the one I call “snowflake”—the original—the worst. because of how cold they are—how clean, how perfect, how enticing to an impressionable mind who has had enough of the sinful nature in American society. There are three religions who go to Yahweh: Jews, Muslims, and Christians; and Christians will always win in the end … Continue reading about Arab terrorists
Category: God’s goodness
About Dad
in other words, words, Dad, Alex. he was so insecure about my male College associations. he was so way high above them as a husband and friend to me and Ian. as a Canadian he had the habits of an armchair intellectual. he had his flaws. But he had a few years on them. He … Continue reading About Dad
if you could see our eyes…
i am looking luke the usual depraved idiot i was because of the wart-mole thing on my face and the damage from being kneed in the crotch by him. He is looking straight ahead with loathing and disgust for me. was this the time that i went collectung fish guts from the river on a … Continue reading if you could see our eyes…
Parting Ways
...with the Western World. Have new friends. Have my son and Ex-Husband.
js woke up; more on this
yes as i have recently explained my repeating a horrific anti--Semitic "joke" that shouldnt have gone anywhere. I did it to piss off my father in a tense situation in a holiday get together; as he devoted himself to Jewish company and causes at "the Labs" in Murray Hill, many of them were emigres like … Continue reading js woke up; more on this
The crux of the matter–photos
my sister at risk in the sand my sister out of the sand, safe in the arms of her big brother and sister recaptured Neither my brother nor I would have ever dreamed of hurting my sister. If she got hurt in some way when we were taking care of her it would NEVER have … Continue reading The crux of the matter–photos
moving along
This is today. At last i am on today. At least for one day. BROADLY SPEAKING. In other words, being in the moment. For the first time since third grade, when i picked up a book up off the table outside the classroom door. im learning for the first time. I used to rehearse my … Continue reading moving along
Abt Change
So (on the DL) I have massive brain damage. Since leaving PA, in 1990 and leaving the clamped crotch episode of my life (but, of course, it came with me as well), and going to California, and getting the Wart-Mole removed from my face RECENTLY, I have become an entirely new person from what people … Continue reading Abt Change
Ditching the bad, turn on the good
They told me that at the hospital on Mt Auburn Street in Cambridge when I was leaving for PA in 1986. "Only the good," they said. And I didn't know what that meant. There had never been any good. Daisy the cat was good but that was bad because I wasn't good enough to take … Continue reading Ditching the bad, turn on the good
Florida oranges
The Florida light has an orange quality when you think of it. Or so it is for me. I was thinking of happiness and I thought of a deep orange sunset glow and of course it was Florida. In California it was pure gold streaming through the birch wood behind our house in (dystopic) Perris … Continue reading Florida oranges
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