Unfair

My mother cultivates me to make me do good works if benefit ti others and takes the benefut of them to prosper my brother and sustervl and anyone other tajers. Removing the ownershio from me and guving me oain and punishnent because i am disabled. This has been goung on since u was a child. … Continue reading Unfair →

Horrible

As this Thansguving goes down, my mither us still stealing my fire from long ago. Its horrible. She took a beating and all along shes hears something terrible happened to her. Meanwhile i got my tubes, my clit and my brain fried in the UCU and fell into a vegetarian stae. My mother was encouraged … Continue reading Horrible →

Who woulda thought…?

Well here i am en pointe at 57---who woulda rhought it? Im backvat "Hutton, " age 17, 1979. To do a kttle tidying and re "point"ing. Arrived on campus for rhe furst day of Freshman week withoutva a change of clirhes, landed at Kingston airpirt and asked directions ti get to the subway and from … Continue reading Who woulda thought…? →

Awesome Visit With my Oldest Friend

She left early to make it back to Manhattan on time. She was so quiet and i was so tired i wasnt aware of her going. I woke up at about 7 and stayed until 10. I havent slept through the night like that in many yesrs. It was very beautiful. So now im back … Continue reading Awesome Visit With my Oldest Friend →

An Old Friend is the Best Friend of All

Staying with her at a hotel by the waterpark. Woke up at 4 this morning having actually slept for about 4 houts wirhout waking uo. This is a first in the last 2 years or so that ive taken the Clozaril, which usually makes me wake up all night long to spit out the extra … Continue reading An Old Friend is the Best Friend of All →

Another incredible breakthrough

I have been praying the Novena to St. Jude and here is another breakthrough. Ever since I can remember I have worried that the Lord is asking me to give up my relationship with my son because I lovc him so much and everybody (my mother) is always trying to take him away from me. … Continue reading Another incredible breakthrough →

Live at catholic.com

I am in for prayers and support at catholic.com on this very special night. when the very best is coupling with the very worst in my life as various threads come together to create a major life moment. I will soon be baptised and confirmed. I will be able to take the Eucharist and I … Continue reading Live at catholic.com →

A Third Novena–updated

I will start a third Novena tomorrow after the second one that finishes tonight, I have decided. I heard a voice saying "No," that she had died because of my last Novena but this says to me that people are living off my suffering. A famous philosopher who attended both my prep school and my … Continue reading A Third Novena–updated →

To the Wall

Whats going on right now is that my young nephew --18 years old--who has been deeply troubled, is coming here around Thanksgiving time, and so is my brother, from Hawaii. They have always organized me out of things when their reunions are involved and rioght now there is no place to "put me." For his … Continue reading To the Wall →

Tattle Tales

At church today i heard that the news is that my parents want ti put me in a mental institution. People assume that they are reasonable people and have ni idea that they are trying to achieve a fnal act of a lifetine of covering uo abuse. I am begging my husband to take me … Continue reading Tattle Tales →