Watershed

So im sitting here and i prayed and i sat diwn in my mind with the pastor who closed tbe door on me and my talk of sexual abuse. And God showed me, yes. You will have to acceot this evl from me. And i do get words like this from him at times. And … Continue reading Watershed →

Nasty; 3

I am noone. I am nowhere. Just another sinner. The good thing about me is that i love my son and Satan and my mother interfered with that today. So its back to praying for the intervention of King Solomon the Wise. I have this.

Nasty; 2

Yes SATAN is NASTY. Last time i exoerienced an attack like this (see my last post) i couldnt accept that it was real because it was so cruel. Now i know that this is exactly what Satan does. He attacked like this a year and a half ago when i was an inpatienr on … Continue reading Nasty; 2 →

Nasty

Today, SATAN IS RRAL. Its been so long id firgotten. It started at the orthopedic office where i went for a check on my little.finger, which i broke when i went to the city nearby here wbere i received services 32 years agi when my family first moved here. I fell on the payment. All … Continue reading Nasty →

Resolved

Resolved and Retroactive; Miss S. of my last post is banned, locked out: where there is weeping and gnashing of teerh. She didn't know how to conduct herself at Hutton and she didn't know how to conduct herself afterward. Just another bumbling atheist. I waa afraid of her. She was planning to "write the great … Continue reading Resolved →

It is well

I made a junk edit on my 2nd book "Evety Cloud... " which is bringing fantastic change and insight but i cant bring myself to trust it. I cut out a swathe of type that had been written online, a bunch of seemingly endless Authors Notes and Introductions: and i dont have a hard copy! … Continue reading It is well →

California, a Pro-Life Novel is available for purchase

lulu.com above link to lulu.com has been updated AGAIN 9/29 11:41 AM California, a Pro-Life Novel, by Abigail Hill, is available for purchase for 9 dollars at the lulu.com bookstore. It is 97 pages long. The "novel" describes the beginning of Bill and Abby's marriage in sunny California. The Pro-Life Blog contains reflections on the … Continue reading California, a Pro-Life Novel is available for purchase →

HARD NIGHT

Texted my son for the zillionth time this week. Stressing. His expensive new car needs a 2000$ fix and he doesn't have the money . I got so lost in another problem that i lost track of his issue and tonight i feel like im holding up the Titanic. My ship is crashing about five … Continue reading HARD NIGHT →

Atonement

I could have sworn i recently posted about being attacked by flies but i dont find it here (oh, snap, i must have put it in my book and it was probably one of the things i took out in that careless edit.) I am going through atonement after carelessly hurting my son just when … Continue reading Atonement →

The Damage

After seeing Sister M. today i have been in a long slow burn if refuting my own suspicions of sexual impropriety WITHOUT turnibg to somebody in authority--been there, done that; in the end i relied on a trusted voice in ny own thoughts to reassure me and overcame the long weekend of worry. OF COURSE … Continue reading The Damage →