in recovery

of course i realized that it was probably an ambulance ( not a spacedhip) that dumped me that night in the woods. I see only darkness. It doesn't make any sense. They would have had to drag me a3ay from the roadv0into the woods and I don't remember any s8uch th I ng. they reached … Continue reading in recovery →

mother & son

[see note at bott9m re typos] it's an indissoluble bond. my new lamp, inbelnownst to me when i ordered it, is called "Torchiere Mother and Son." It just made the whole thing perfect. As this nev situation started out with a project to retroactively heal everything pertaining to my son's 's life from conception to … Continue reading mother & son →

re: inventory at age 60

from a week ago I have to add the 15 years total breakdown from 2003 to 2018 over sick constipation. A doctor in Allentown had the answer in 2018: Miralax. It worked once and then it kept on working. Before going to the hospital this time last year, it stopped working and i was horribly … Continue reading re: inventory at age 60 →

Missing my ex

it took 10 years to be out of the relationship. I needed to change. I sent him emails every day and asked if it was okay. Every 3 months or so I got a one- word reply: "Yes." but I was very ill. I had a relationship in college that scratched the surface of where … Continue reading Missing my ex →

praising Philhaven

It was a clean and spartan stay where I was able to divest myself of a lot of damage from what they did to me at Haven in Reading. I saw that a lot of people were quite happy there. I just wasn't a good fit. And its probably a problem in the industry to … Continue reading praising Philhaven →

I once was lost…

my son among the alien4 and alien5 who have been here to clean up the mess from the 20th c. us, happy as we should have been, as follows: the name Ian is Scottish for John Alex Young in LA. 1992 happiness I may not have looked that way, but I felt that way. Isn … Continue reading I once was lost… →

tasering

please note. It 8s my father wasn't much help to me with Ian when he was a child, but the real issue between me and him was the physical damage to me. I dont think he did any physical harm to ian whatsoever. But he bullied him. What we all are experiencing now was in … Continue reading tasering →

Faith inventory at the present…

...is pretty 9ffbeat. I have struggled to find female rolemodels among the saints. I can only hope that the Lord approves my course--in the present--to imitate the course of Saint Mary Magdelan, who was a strong woman in the early church. I want to be a a strong woman for help and support generally for … Continue reading Faith inventory at the present… →

inventory at age 60

well now that I have settled the sexual abuse issue--it did happen--I was caught up in the worst season for sexual abuse claims, the early 80's, it was a craze and still is. I just wanted to know exactly what happened and maybe I don't know all of it but I know two key parts … Continue reading inventory at age 60 →

yes it really happened

Although I do not clearly remember (they may have knocked me out) I have the evidence of my subconscious and where my lights went out on the Pagoda Unit, the "tan code" where I was safe if I was touching the tan-colored handrails, just like it was a grade school game. Then I remember the … Continue reading yes it really happened →