Eye Surgery

All bets are off until noon. My mother is having cataract surgery. Its very difficult. My moving in here fell in the midst if both parents having surgery on both eyes. It seems im always an inconvenience to my mother and father. Trying to resolve this. My father bought me a new laptop yesterday, and … Continue reading Eye Surgery →

Long Days Journey into Night

Gruelling day. Thank God this move happened around Easter Sunday. Everything fell into place around the profound faith of the pastor i watched online at 930 this morning, i lost the worst of my sin. I have never connected to Jesus before in such a profound way--the bliidvthe oain the suffering flrdh if our redeemer: … Continue reading Long Days Journey into Night →

Hallelujah

Leaving this place in an hour. As i say my goodbyes, make paths straight in the Lord and finish packing, it just dawned on me that my son has come to faith. He is living in a setting like this wbere it is natural to speak of God, and be did so to me in … Continue reading Hallelujah →

Last Day; 2

Well in the end all i am on my last day is a woman who had an abortion. I was going to say, a really bad abortion. But all abortions are really bad. I started thinking about it yesterdasy. It spoiled one if my goodbyes. Today, my last day, is Good Friday. I guess thats a … Continue reading Last Day; 2 →

Trial Home Visit: At Home

Well i havent made my home here since the late 80's so its funny to call it home. I identified that i have a purpose here, which is to regain control of my sons life: they took control when they got the ridiculous restraining order in 2000. It permitted me to live at home with … Continue reading Trial Home Visit: At Home →

Trial Home Visit

Its been a gruelling morning. Ever heard the expression, "it doesn't hurt to ask" ? "They can only say no"? My father lives to defy it. I asked for a ride at 10 rather than wait until 2. "Thats a real imposition" my mother started, asnd handed the phone to my father, who continued, "totally … Continue reading Trial Home Visit →

Humdinger of a Day Today

Well i went to sleep immediately after an awesome smoke break last night. I quietly held my place. "Sit tight" i heard my sons voice saying to me in my mind over and over. "Youre the same as anybody else." I went to the sexual malfeasance i threw off of myself from back in the … Continue reading Humdinger of a Day Today →

Problem Solved

Couldnt have worked out better. Miss V cane out 15 minutes late for 400 smoke break all ready for me. But then tbe phone rang while i was smoking my first cigarette: doctor calling to confirm for Monday, which broke up the carefully orchestrated solution. So i dropped everything and walked uo to her explaining … Continue reading Problem Solved →

Alls Well That Ends Well

When one door shuts another one opens. Got a call from my old friend A. who proved through a life long friendship sealed with champagne in the girls room of Majors Dorm at Wayland School graduation morning in May 1979. I always looked back on that with pain for what followed. Now i recall it … Continue reading Alls Well That Ends Well →

Strange Day

Grieving . Its here at last . Ive wrapped up my born child's life in a tidy ball and gone back in time and space to the two abortions, finally understanding rhat they passed through the Lord's hands. Moreover, that they passed through Satans. At last i had the sense to invoke St. Michael Archangel … Continue reading Strange Day →