Big J.

Big J. on the smoking porch is out of line. This man has the mental age of his shoe size which is even more alarming because they must be about size 16, this man is HUGE, and he throws his weight around, that's what he's doing now. His size wins out over any rational argument. … Continue reading Big J. →

The Answer–Live for Christ

I didnt get it right away. How silly of me. God has saved me from death and brought me to new life. I didn't bother to ask Him what I should do! Live for Him of course!

Victory, Victory in Christ

Well one victory was long in coming, i had to learn about forgiveness, and my son helped me too: you can't control others, he pointed out. I was very afraid of giving over sexual territory becsuse of my history, but now I have "the new innocence, " and when the male resident B. got close … Continue reading Victory, Victory in Christ →

Not going well

My turning over a new leaf here is not going well. I had a bad monent with the nighttime security guard that reminded me of how badly i was treated in my earlier stay here, and i had the feeling I wouldn't be able to let it go. And just now the two different men … Continue reading Not going well →

Repentance

I come upon a place very different from what I thought. The Lord wont take me back to where i was early this morning where i saw my son and his suffering and how he felt about my book and my blogging. I caught a glimpse of it and then it was gone again. I … Continue reading Repentance →

My horrible book

Tremendous value in getting "pissed off" like that. (See the post by that name). First, the X-ville reconciliation I described in my last post, and now i have come to terms with my son and my horrible book. Which brings me to the end of figuring my suicide attempt. I self-published a book made up … Continue reading My horrible book →

New life at a personal boarding care home

So yes, in answer to my question, it is sometimes an imperative TO go out fir a cigarette. I wasn't sure. That was my pain. I was meant to go out there and take that as a warning. I thought I could post about my experience of Black America but now that I'm in the … Continue reading New life at a personal boarding care home →

Wow

Big things are in the pipeline. This morning I made up with the patient B. whom i mentioned in another post: he had a bad fall over the weekend so it was timely. I had forgiven him and repented if a bad attitude towards his clumsiness borne out if resentment. Thank God. On the way … Continue reading Wow →

White Woman Gives an Accounting

Now i have my life complete. The last thing in the pipeline was the questionable involvement with black racial ussues, where I had determined that i sexualized Blacks and withdrew from that arena. I repented. But repentance brings good things. I have always been thrown into the race issue since marching for blacks with my … Continue reading White Woman Gives an Accounting →

End of the Day

It has been a very funny day, funny strange. At the end if the day it comes back to my phone call with my mother. I called her after falling into a sin, thinking I would be safe, and then I wasn't. She got in a line about my shoes, akways a bone of contention … Continue reading End of the Day →