New innocence

Finally I found myself in tears and held by Jesus. Other things went wrong besides the ones I mentioned in my last post "Ectopic Pregnancy," and i realized that i have changed since yesterday as described in ny post "Freedom," about a release from the sex with my husband which had continued in my mind. … Continue reading New innocence →

Freedom

God just released me from the sexual relationship with my ex husband, which was a question of ungodly and painful contortions. It is a relief. God showed me His tears. I'm not sure what He means. I see ny husband in my minds eye, a good looking fellow with a good sense of humor. How … Continue reading Freedom →

Jury Duty

After a day that was salvaged from a bad start to a lofty place, i am beached on a rocky shore with no help in sight. I got to the place where my mother had to give it over to my ex to let us be but then that clarity failed through my roommate usurping … Continue reading Jury Duty →

Down a few points on the smoking porch

Had to go out with the protection of a staffer and she was protecting the peace in general and not just me and i took a few steps down in humility that i wasnt well able to accept, not being well established in my new mode which is falling all over nyself in my old, … Continue reading Down a few points on the smoking porch →

Illness and Insight

God has some brutal or "brute force" ways of working. As soon as I said I would trust in his always keeping the thread for me, He broke it. And at the same time he showed me my roommate, who is, it turns out, a Catholic. (She went to Mass this morning.) So much as … Continue reading Illness and Insight →

The Battle for my Blog

Well it happens every time. I buy a custom domain and then i get carried away with my blog. This time i got thrown a curve. I started thinking about my old therapist in Florida, the one i got hung up on for years. At one point he was ready to date me but i … Continue reading The Battle for my Blog →

Error

Im beating myself up over a banal and stupid error, fumbling with my cigzrette butt at the smoke extinguishing receptacle and dropping it on the ground, and i came here, only to be reassured thzt i haven't finally, really lost the thread--what i always live in fear of. No-- by my last post, "Error Message," … Continue reading Error →