Sunday photo pics

Missy Lynne finally got her purple Purple is a color for sensitivity, pregnant women, psychotherapists, and royalty. her dad never thought she could win. The best person in the world or so it seemed at the time. i didn't understand that he had a real girlfriend. He was being so kind. We were in the … Continue reading Sunday photo pics →

next step.

I grieve for my father and the life that we had. I grieve for the person, the man that he was. We sacrificed. Because he was doing things that were important. Hopkins trashed all that. my father offered to punch me and my mother picked up Ian and fled here to the cottage where I … Continue reading next step. →

Arriving at Conclusions.

my father deserves a reprieve from anything he has said and done since Hopkins thst was questionable as he was disabled by the stroke and wasn't getting any help. Hopkins put my mother in chsrge and she didnt hsndle it appropriately.. it is hard to imagine how things could have happened differently as things went … Continue reading Arriving at Conclusions. →

Nervous

n I don't know why. something I did, don't know why. n the Lord won't take it off of me. don't know who I am anything could happen and I might not be ready to handle it. water over the bridge that oughtn't to have been. after a lifetime or half of one I screwed … Continue reading Nervous →

A Saint

A felon who helped people at Haven Hospital in Reading, i have heard, is now a Saint. Her name was Lori. I called her a Saint and several others also. It was that deep there. I am not crying, I am mortally ashamed. Because she personally loved me back to life after the epiphany I … Continue reading A Saint →

photo

my beautiful bed, one that I can lie in. It's an old futon on a flat frame. I have to thank my father for funding this beautiful and healing project of completely gutting this old place and refurbishing it to my own taste. I just pray ny mother doesn't move back in and haul everything … Continue reading photo →

pain-taking

I won't do it any more. I fight back. I remember saying a long time ago that In the 80's it was about "farming out the pain." my father used to say it. my pain at that time was future-oriented. I had no idea where I was going or what I was doing. 8n 5he … Continue reading pain-taking →

in the wake of the Queens death…

it's been a jumbled up time. I was in the midst of buying appliances and everything down to a freestanding countertop to make the place truly livable. I have been stuck here for 4 years in a condition I now recognize was abominable. Where there is no supporting physical structure, your mind, heart body and … Continue reading in the wake of the Queens death… →

iron might

I always remembed our visit to Fountains Abbey in England when I was 14. it was like you could see knights in armor on horseback crashing in from their last quest. I returned to Kent School, a boarding school based on the English system and founded by a Monk. I can't remember now which order, … Continue reading iron might →

Saints, angels, aliens and cats

the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit starting a new life, mourning Queen Elizabeth. trying to get used to the feeling of a King in power, it's so different. I have pictures of my English grandparents that I drew, I would like to share them. The last was my mother's mother. She died early … Continue reading Saints, angels, aliens and cats →