I won't do it any more. I fight back. I remember saying a long time ago that In the 80's it was about "farming out the pain." my father used to say it. my pain at that time was future-oriented. I had no idea where I was going or what I was doing. 8n 5he … Continue reading pain-taking
Category: GRACE
in the wake of the Queens death…
it's been a jumbled up time. I was in the midst of buying appliances and everything down to a freestanding countertop to make the place truly livable. I have been stuck here for 4 years in a condition I now recognize was abominable. Where there is no supporting physical structure, your mind, heart body and … Continue reading in the wake of the Queens death…
Abortion
I remember looking up at my brother Steven as we were standing on the beach in Cape May. At that time I didn't know what the feeling was. TERRIFIED; he was the father of my child. It's finally coming out. We were in the boat. They had me drive. I felt like everybody could see … Continue reading Abortion
commitment
That word can mean such nice things. but it can also mean being placed involuntarily in a psychiatric setting. I have been running from this word for 42 years. I will follow the Lord.
story of a family in crayon pictures
Alex as a youth Ian in recovery Ian involved in alien4 alien5 combat at an early age. That's my guess. Alien4 weilds lightening sabres and alien5, spears of gold. Together they do the Lord's work. Alex changed from supercool engineering work into information sciences. It paid better and I think he really loves it, actually … Continue reading story of a family in crayon pictures
Fakes
I do not believe that Judith and Steven are dead. I believe everyone faked a bizarre suicue/homicide/apparent stroke death to get me out of the picture. They've done it before, they will do it again. they need to understand that things have changed. It would probably be very awkward to meet, i'm not the same … Continue reading Fakes
New blog up and running
Un.Bon.Mot. I like it. I've been transitioning... I've been making a change here as reflected in the site title and also simultaneously it reflects the huge change in my life now free of nasty wart-mole. buying furniture and appliances as necessary for this place is fun! I was living as a cave creature. I have … Continue reading New blog up and running
actual alien encounter
it Is my duty to report what I have seen. I am taking all of the medications provided by my psychiatrist. when I was out in the woods... I don't remember it clearly or in sequence but I have the voice now to say what happened to me. I had forgotten a lot but now … Continue reading actual alien encounter
the truth at last
my mother is still living. they went their separate ways. it is no business of mine. but some aspects of the situation are. for 2 1/2 years I have not been told when everyone else knew. today I had the weirdest sense that I was communicating with her about how you have to clean up … Continue reading the truth at last
A break in the clouds
as the confusion gradually resolves I am clearing a lot of bull that I have held onto for what seems like centuries. first of all my sister has her own issues and should be attending to them not me. That's about all I have to say on that account at this time. But I have … Continue reading A break in the clouds
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