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even if its only for 24 hours, right now I feel at peace wirh my father and at home. he went out to buy cigarettes for me down the road; i slept twice today,whatever happens i am glad for this moment. fixed my keyboard to stop the typos. Comparatively. whatever may come, praise the Lord, … Continue reading Home →

in recovery

of course i realized that it was probably an ambulance ( not a spacedhip) that dumped me that night in the woods. I see only darkness. It doesn't make any sense. They would have had to drag me a3ay from the roadv0into the woods and I don't remember any s8uch th I ng. they reached … Continue reading in recovery →

A new concept in psych

I hit upon the concept pt of Retroactive Interpolation in psychotherapy and my last post represented a trial of it. After that, or as a part of it, comes proactive proliferation of tthe better future. That's where I was at after getting out of Horsham and comng h9m toa dangerous situation here. That's why all … Continue reading A new concept in psych →

mother & son

[see note at bott9m re typos] it's an indissoluble bond. my new lamp, inbelnownst to me when i ordered it, is called "Torchiere Mother and Son." It just made the whole thing perfect. As this nev situation started out with a project to retroactively heal everything pertaining to my son's 's life from conception to … Continue reading mother & son →

re: inventory at age 60

from a week ago I have to add the 15 years total breakdown from 2003 to 2018 over sick constipation. A doctor in Allentown had the answer in 2018: Miralax. It worked once and then it kept on working. Before going to the hospital this time last year, it stopped working and i was horribly … Continue reading re: inventory at age 60 →

Feldman in Tampa

Sorting things out today. Remembering how he forced me off of my faith. Saying that when I said "jesus" all the time it was just a mantra. This was at Memorial Hospital in Tampa. Im sure people remember, even though it was in 2003. I made a spectacle of myself on his psych ward because … Continue reading Feldman in Tampa →

Missing my ex

it took 10 years to be out of the relationship. I needed to change. I sent him emails every day and asked if it was okay. Every 3 months or so I got a one- word reply: "Yes." but I was very ill. I had a relationship in college that scratched the surface of where … Continue reading Missing my ex →

extermination

I just figured out the word for what my father wants to do to me. He hates me. And has since the moment I was born. all this, point, everything that's going down, is because of his naive immaturity. He's still the same at 90. He needs to go away for a little while, just … Continue reading extermination →

Occult healing

I am finally stepping free from that ICU table where I have lived all these many years. the MH System may not work very well on its own but where God steps in it comes together. As here. clamped catheter agony i dont know why this happened to me and maybe I never will but … Continue reading Occult healing →

Trap

this is the denouement, the unraveling of this vast malpractice suit against John's Hopkins Hospital Affective Disoorders Unit. it started outside St Mary's Catholic Church in Kutztown, PA, home of Kutztown University; so I have been very self-assured in pursuing this cause because I knew that I was called. the main thing is that the … Continue reading Trap →