tasering

please note. It 8s my father wasn't much help to me with Ian when he was a child, but the real issue between me and him was the physical damage to me. I dont think he did any physical harm to ian whatsoever. But he bullied him. What we all are experiencing now was in … Continue reading tasering →

re: inventory at age 60

is there a doctor--a psychiatrist--in Allentown who is willing to see me based on the profile I presented in my last post? please understand that I had a horrible experience the first time I reached out to a psych practitioner and I was never able to help myself after that. Ive been food for fools … Continue reading re: inventory at age 60 →

the abortion

I was always so troubled about the first pregnancy and abortion. why would anyone do that? He said "Let me come deep inside you, say you love me until the end of time!" well I was not ready for that but he had me pinned down. I said to myself let it be of free … Continue reading the abortion →

imitating the course of Saint Mary Magdelan

l learned that she was a strong figure in the early church. I am to be a figure for the New Church that understands the presence and influence, and also possible danger and threat, of ALIENS.on Earth and coming towards us in the Heavens. I have had a horrendous experience that prepared me to be … Continue reading imitating the course of Saint Mary Magdelan →

HARD TIMES

I had the worst time in my life over the Charcoal + constipation incident. Something so frightening and so horrible happened to me. I wound up on a bed somewhere st LVH Cedar Crest behaving in a bizarre way and yelling and screaming. It was so raw. Im not going to try to explain except … Continue reading HARD TIMES →

Illness

INCEST. in my family as in many others, this has been an issue. I finally figured that it was my brother who got me pregnant when I was 13, not my father.

SICK

my sister Claire is a very sick person. it happened to me and i know what it's like. but she needs to stop spending her time faking evidence for my father's uses against me. And herself. and interfering in my son's life.

Arriving at Conclusions.

my father deserves a reprieve from anything he has said and done since Hopkins thst was questionable as he was disabled by the stroke and wasn't getting any help. Hopkins put my mother in chsrge and she didnt hsndle it appropriately.. it is hard to imagine how things could have happened differently as things went … Continue reading Arriving at Conclusions. →

Nervous

n I don't know why. something I did, don't know why. n the Lord won't take it off of me. don't know who I am anything could happen and I might not be ready to handle it. water over the bridge that oughtn't to have been. after a lifetime or half of one I screwed … Continue reading Nervous →

last gasp re Hopkns, the MENTAL impact

or lack thereof. The first night I was there Lipsey made the point to me that "an idle mind is the Devil's workshop." and then just dropped it. I spent the next 28 years of my life figuring it out for myself. I had been having horrifying problems with Satan out in California and was … Continue reading last gasp re Hopkns, the MENTAL impact →