Abt My Mother

I have to beg for indulgence toward her, I am thinking that she is still living. Please remember the picture I painted of her that I saw of her in my mind, running through a deep forest in a flowered dress terrified of being skinned alive by natives. It was so horrifying to me. I … Continue reading Abt My Mother →

Yes, Sick Work. More Sick Work

I realized that my friend A would not be responsible for it, she would be a victim. Recently I found out that I was a very strong person. The lesion on my face irritatingly sapped my strength all my life. I tired after the least exertion. When I came back here after the last hospitalization … Continue reading Yes, Sick Work. More Sick Work →

Always Remember

Sometimes it doesn't seem like it but, God is love. God cares. God has a plan.

Angel or ALIEN

just one tiny ignorant little worm at the heart of this. but... the most spectacular vast wings of light, multiplex, crystalline, the size of a few buildings but on outer space terms. poised in the sky in my mind Friend or foe?

dentists–too much

there is something going on with my dental care. A young dentist in Florida completely destroyed my bit with a bad crown. My teeth were never right after that. Dentists kept trying to fix the problem with new crowns. Then I saw a dentist here who did terrible work. I got a nasty shot that … Continue reading dentists–too much →

embarrassment

Sometimes one bad thing solves something worse/ I ran to the front door in my skivvy nighty with a corduroy short covering it because I was waiting for a delivery that I was afraid my father would refuse the delivery. He was stuck out back and didn't have time to do anthing. It is a … Continue reading embarrassment →

Letter to my son

I am sensing in your mood that you are hearing some bad things from people who knew me at Kent and Harvard and other times. I am very sorry for this. Sorry that people are telling you and sorry that those things happened. There were a lot of people taking advantage of me and leading me down wrong paths and … Continue reading Letter to my son →

Kent School, Connecticut

We used to vacation at Lake Waramaug near New Preston, CT, and my parents discovered that there was a boarding school nearby. It was about a minute before whey decided to A send us to boarding school and B be definitely interested in Kent, especially because of the equestrian program. In other words, my mother … Continue reading Kent School, Connecticut →

apology

i made some statements about myself and people who i am close to based on reading about the Chinese "horoscope." first, let me make another apology to kehugh andd Berjs county generally fir things i have said and done here when i was disoruented: most if all for leaving, in 1991, without saying any goodbyes. … Continue reading apology →

A poem for the Queen

i will miss you i already do. Its all out in the cold for us now, a warm, loving presence that we took for granted for so long has gone away to her eternal rest and i am left sitting downstairs where there is no heat On a ricketty old rattan chair at my son's … Continue reading A poem for the Queen →