pulling some things together.

An idle stroll through some recent movements captured in drawings. I stepped on a toad in the dark of evening and felt terrible about it. But i also felt afraid, which, I think, isn't normal. It was an accident. I said to myself I matter more to God than a toad don't I? Well HE … Continue reading pulling some things together. →

Trap

this is the denouement, the unraveling of this vast malpractice suit against John's Hopkins Hospital Affective Disoorders Unit. it started outside St Mary's Catholic Church in Kutztown, PA, home of Kutztown University; so I have been very self-assured in pursuing this cause because I knew that I was called. the main thing is that the … Continue reading Trap →

tasering

please note. It 8s my father wasn't much help to me with Ian when he was a child, but the real issue between me and him was the physical damage to me. I dont think he did any physical harm to ian whatsoever. But he bullied him. What we all are experiencing now was in … Continue reading tasering →

re: inventory at age 60

is there a doctor--a psychiatrist--in Allentown who is willing to see me based on the profile I presented in my last post? please understand that I had a horrible experience the first time I reached out to a psych practitioner and I was never able to help myself after that. Ive been food for fools … Continue reading re: inventory at age 60 →

the abortion

I was always so troubled about the first pregnancy and abortion. why would anyone do that? He said "Let me come deep inside you, say you love me until the end of time!" well I was not ready for that but he had me pinned down. I said to myself let it be of free … Continue reading the abortion →

Sunday photo pics

Missy Lynne finally got her purple Purple is a color for sensitivity, pregnant women, psychotherapists, and royalty. her dad never thought she could win. The best person in the world or so it seemed at the time. i didn't understand that he had a real girlfriend. He was being so kind. We were in the … Continue reading Sunday photo pics →

SICK

my sister Claire is a very sick person. it happened to me and i know what it's like. but she needs to stop spending her time faking evidence for my father's uses against me. And herself. and interfering in my son's life.

last gasp re Hopkns, the MENTAL impact

or lack thereof. The first night I was there Lipsey made the point to me that "an idle mind is the Devil's workshop." and then just dropped it. I spent the next 28 years of my life figuring it out for myself. I had been having horrifying problems with Satan out in California and was … Continue reading last gasp re Hopkns, the MENTAL impact →

HOPKINS: the physical impact

over time the debacle of my stay at Hopkins became progressively more physical as my mother disdained me, restraining orders were filed, and the emotional stress and the climate in Florida were too much for me. I was so ill. My treatment of Ian was shocking. In ways that I couldn't control. And this pained … Continue reading HOPKINS: the physical impact →

photo

my beautiful bed, one that I can lie in. It's an old futon on a flat frame. I have to thank my father for funding this beautiful and healing project of completely gutting this old place and refurbishing it to my own taste. I just pray ny mother doesn't move back in and haul everything … Continue reading photo →