Ian, Today I am breaking through to a new level. I am recalling Magdalena. A woman at the state hospital, she was pure blonde, talked to herself all day long under her breath. She said she had a husband floating around somewhere in Germany. Or, she was from Germany. I cant remember. She was a … Continue reading more on state hospital
Category: Mental Journeys
At The State Hospital
I have talked about Mark at the state hospital; I have talked about David at the State hospital. I never explained that they were friends. Also, significantly, that the girlfriend that had him in a thrall from high school that he blamed for his Illness and was probably the cause for his seducing women and … Continue reading At The State Hospital
Friends
Living in Berks County in the 80s I had many friends and a number of lovers that I shouldnt have. I have written here so many times about how that happened. I didnt know what I was doing, I had been PHYSICALLY HARMED in the ICU where there was already a sexual injury and I … Continue reading Friends
Psych Diagnosis, Contd.; 2
Routinely showering at night instead of during the day, which was onerous. Today I am on an incontinence day because of the continuous lower GI issue; for 2 1/2 years it has been in abeyance with the daily use of Miralax, truly a miracle after a decade and a half of sick, serious lower GI … Continue reading Psych Diagnosis, Contd.; 2
the Advocate
So, at Harvard things were upside down. I finally found my place with other smokers on the undergraduate literary magazine, The Harvard Advocate. I met a man there who rocked my socks. He brought to mind the high school English teacher. Mr. Gould (now decesased) at Kent School, with whom I had been completely obsessed … Continue reading the Advocate
California
Ian, im sitting here thinking out college. It took a lifetime to figure out the social bs mostly because of being English. And because of grandads hi-tech job. I had to go to a major university to field my needs and to fit in but I wasnt really prepared for it. So, today, I am … Continue reading California
About Adam
My father runs me. I used to be horribly concerned about this because of my sexual immaturity and his. Friend Robyn in Florida showed me and ex husband Alex that "everybody is a pervert!" lol!!!. He said he and his automechanic buddies cracked weird jokes all day long at the shop. We were all totally … Continue reading About Adam
Old Friends
Amy, I'm reminded to ask you, I am in trouble over a Harvard/BU joke I told to Marcy when we were spending a lot of time together in the Boston area after graduation. Actually I am in a lot of trouble over jokes, I always loved a clever joke and people were always telling me … Continue reading Old Friends
Domino; email to my son
Ian, I suddenly see this whole, lifelong situation clearly. Frank and Grandad came over here to the United States on a honeymoon on a lark. At least, that was what Grandma thought. Grandad told me he knew he wanted to stay in America. People always confided in me. I was like a receptacle for secrets, … Continue reading Domino; email to my son
Remark
23 years ago I did a stupid thing. I sent a letter to an old friend with some photographs and used a nasty word about a group of people in my life. "Barracudas," I think that that was it. There was some nasty stuff going on at Harvard when I was there over Men's clubs, … Continue reading Remark
Un.Bon.Mot 