That about says it. I have; I am. I realized that I had a terrible, even insulting habit of negativity in my everyday speech. I rapidly was able to let go of this, once I saw it. with the Lords help. Since then, I have been making all kinds of positive strides. So, as I … Continue reading Turning over a new leaf
Category: Mental Journeys
Finale, 2
At the house in Summit, New Jersey, my little sister--8 years younger--told me she had a dream that she was drowning in mud. I took rhis very seriously as I was deeply engaged in ineffectually pursuing imaginary psychoanalysis based on the book, "August" that my psychotherapist had given me to read. It was about a … Continue reading Finale, 2
Finale
The ultimate blog post; the 40-year procrastination list resolved. Numerous 40 year trajectories coming together as one all at once. I have posted numerous times in the last few days and it has led to a real watershed and the denouement of the most important struggle of my life. In a nutshell, I was stranded … Continue reading Finale
Drugs
That's what it comes down to. My brother, who has died, said that I was the worst drug addict he knew. Since I was 21 I have been the victim of a thrall with psych meds misprescribed. It was a 3 part question. First, the prescriver was not competent to treat me 2 times over … Continue reading Drugs
The truth is always better than a lie
My father thinks that I want to have sex with him. He thinks that all women secretly desire to have a sex with him. Maybe all men are like that. I couldnt know, because of my injured clit from being kneed in the crotch as a child. In college I hit my boyfriend on the … Continue reading The truth is always better than a lie
Connecting the Dots; updated
Well, its been a long time; but the water is finally well over the dam. Since Wernersville State Hospital in Berks County. PA, from a situation in 1988; where they didnt know me and I was held on a bunch of lies that I didnt even know. Then, I spent 2 years here in semi-recovery; … Continue reading Connecting the Dots; updated
Dentist, updated
At the state hospital, the first time, after the nearly fatal overdose, I took a vow of poverty. I was so I was so impressed with the beauty of this place and the loving community out in rhe rural wilds beyond Reading, PA on the way to Lancaster. There was a beautiful old park; the … Continue reading Dentist, updated
Performance Art
Performance art. That was something that went by with the 80s as I remember it. But that's was where I continued to inhere all these years pending ongoing psychoanalysis attaching to my old psychoanalyst in Cambridge. Mass., whom I touched based with now and again over the decades that followed after leaving. The 80s. I … Continue reading Performance Art
Phone Preference
I figured out a lot of things by realizing that I was a "hi-tech brat." I had a college roommate who was a self-proclaimed "faculty brat;" "similar to a military brat." The issue of "phone preference" came up with her. My father was a hi-tech professional and was also an AT&T employee and my mother's … Continue reading Phone Preference
Update to last night’s post, “Misperception vs. Reality”
I became a stalker in South Central Florida. I posted about the Nurse Practitioner gyn person; we were pleasantly "invited" to Florida with a good job offer, but after we got there we were beaten all to hell. It was me of course. In my mind I was still dealing with the diffIcult and deleterious … Continue reading Update to last night’s post, “Misperception vs. Reality”
Un.Bon.Mot 