President Trump, Nancy Pelosi; updated

I don't really know what's going on there but it has something to do with Holy Fools; and I don't really even know what that means; they said that Dorothy Day was one. I just know that that has something to do with understanding this situation. ... I just want to cry when I think … Continue reading President Trump, Nancy Pelosi; updated →

A Letter to Society

About where I've been and where I'm going. Picking up a huge puzzle piece this evening. About a summer evening in Reading, PA long, long ago. Two men on motorcycles; the Pagoda. Two sensual movies at the local theatre. A hot dark night. I lost my heart to a man there; never to return. So, … Continue reading A Letter to Society →

Home!

Finally understood that the disappearing nytimes Opinion posts were about that I shouldn't have been going back there. I sort of knew this. I was able to write out my book that way, but it was done. I missed WordPress blogging! That has been home since a bout 2009, when I first started blogging in … Continue reading Home! →

Coffee

I mentioned in my last post about driving the PA roadways, back in the 80's in my Dodge Colt, drinking 10 large coffees and smoking "endless cigarettes." Well, there was a history to that. I remember drinking a couple of cups of coffee at the senior coffee house at boarding school, and totally freaking out … Continue reading Coffee →

Re the cat Sasha

My father thinks that I need to know (for myself) what he thinks he needs to know to be a man. Towards this end, he is constantly punishing, teasing and twisting me. My sister, on the other hand, is perfect, sweet, a delight. They have a little romance. He likes to make that comparison. She … Continue reading Re the cat Sasha →

Work in Progress

So, it is SICKENING, what I have to write about today. I have to go further back, before my child, before the lies and deception surrounding the marriage, before my child; when i was a REALLY, REALLY HORRIBLE PERSON. I drove the PA roadways for hours a day, drinking 10 large coffees, spilling coffee on … Continue reading Work in Progress →

THIS JUST IN

OMG First of all, the cat, Sasha, i didn't explain to anybody what happened with the euthanasia because i didn't realize how important it was to get it said. Something untoward happened at the last munute on the way to the vet, an urgent care clinic at an unfamiliar location. I forgot to indicate as … Continue reading THIS JUST IN →

Talking

Talked to an old friend last night. I haven't talked in years; ever. Dont know who to trust. My exhusband was one of the few NOT wordless people who was able to communicate with me. His French/German influenced Canadian with my Americanized British: he had learned as a youth in Europe how to be understood … Continue reading Talking →

Lies and Deception. Updated 8/10/2020 4:30 pm

This post was just updated: First of all, its about the rape at the beach when i was 13. When i was living here in my 20s, they (my parents) (world's worst friends to children) said to me, obliquely, "It happened when you were 13." A few years later--i was still living here-- i mentioned … Continue reading Lies and Deception. Updated 8/10/2020 4:30 pm →

Ulterior Motives

Poor Sasha! I just didn't know! The shocker was that her skin was falling off! The vet tech went to comb her back and her skin was falling off with her hair in chunks. The problem with this for me was that back in November of 2016 I made a suicide attempt of taking a … Continue reading Ulterior Motives →