Terrible guilt

All of my life I have had terrible guilt over sexual feelings and conduct stemming from a physical injury. My brother kneed me in the crotch when i was just a little girl and I suffered a bad nerve in my clitoris all my life long. It generated dysphoria and misbehabior and disgrace. And I … Continue reading Terrible guilt →

Dear Mr. Trump,

Just know we love you and are praying for you. Nancy Pelosi is a nasty bitch. Just step back, take a deep breath, and forgive her for what she's doing to you, because she knows better. Shes just doing what left wing propaganda has told her to do for a very long time. Don't worry, … Continue reading Dear Mr. Trump, →

Investigate the investigators

Investigate Trump's investigators, they are trying to run him out of office. Their charges and accusations are unfounded. Surely this is against the law.

Uncomfortable

Everything is changing really fast and looking really good. I dont want to be benefitting from my brothers suicide! But, maybe that's what he wants. After 40 years, I am entirely OVER my suicidal thinking. And praying for 40 more years! I am up for it! I want this house. I always "poo pooed" it, … Continue reading Uncomfortable →

The verdict is in at the M. Household

Coming in from the main house, through the spring room and conservatory to the cottage side; I have left them watching the news againt Trump. I witnessed for him, saying, "How could you expect this poor man to function with all this negativity going on? He's only human." He had just stated that he wouldnt … Continue reading The verdict is in at the M. Household →

Supermarket 2

Wow. Blogging about the supermarket always gets out of control. I told my therapist, today, about the incident last week, and we had a very good session. Then, on the way home, I remembered pertient facts that I had forgotten. The incident occurred in the context of my embarrassment earlier in the week when I … Continue reading Supermarket 2 →

36 years of psychoanalysis coming to a Close

NOT MINE. I have been the proxy for my mother's best friends psychotherapy with my first psychiatrist, a CHILD PSYCHIATRIST who saw adults for strictly medication management. She saw him for 3 decades before leaving New Jersey for a retirement community in the Boston area, where her children are. I saw the psychiatrist for about … Continue reading 36 years of psychoanalysis coming to a Close →

Accountable for sexual abuse of self

Well the shit gets deep when you become accountable on account of what SOMEBODY ELSE does TO YOU. Your father expresses a sexual interest in you-- you are 17--that is your problem, regardless of the fact that it is not on account of anything you have done. With your mother it is like RAPE in … Continue reading Accountable for sexual abuse of self →

Accountable

I am not. I took a public stance when I moved to Florida as accountable for my attitude and ideas on the Black White race issue. Because I had done so on the psych ward in Maryland, during the OJ Simpson trial and Clarence Thomas meetings in 1995, where so many of the staff were … Continue reading Accountable →

Supermarket

This takes me way back. In South Allentown, around summer 2015. I became unpopular around town, "town" being the supermarket corner strip mall with a Giant, Cost Cutters, et cetera. My daily experience ran over into my blog and some didnt like that. And I got embarrassed. This was in the midst of my heavy … Continue reading Supermarket →