It is well

I made a junk edit on my 2nd book "Evety Cloud... " which is bringing fantastic change and insight but i cant bring myself to trust it. I cut out a swathe of type that had been written online, a bunch of seemingly endless Authors Notes and Introductions: and i dont have a hard copy! … Continue reading It is well →

She knows who she is and what she did

This post is about a self-identified "Stanford faculty brat." She was so boring and negative i don't even want to write this post. For her Hutton was an obligation. What a loss. I was struggling with the same feelings for heartbreaking reasons. For me that was a passion and a problem. For her it was … Continue reading She knows who she is and what she did →

California, a Pro-Life Novel is available for purchase

lulu.com above link to lulu.com has been updated AGAIN 9/29 11:41 AM California, a Pro-Life Novel, by Abigail Hill, is available for purchase for 9 dollars at the lulu.com bookstore. It is 97 pages long. The "novel" describes the beginning of Bill and Abby's marriage in sunny California. The Pro-Life Blog contains reflections on the … Continue reading California, a Pro-Life Novel is available for purchase →

HARD NIGHT

Texted my son for the zillionth time this week. Stressing. His expensive new car needs a 2000$ fix and he doesn't have the money . I got so lost in another problem that i lost track of his issue and tonight i feel like im holding up the Titanic. My ship is crashing about five … Continue reading HARD NIGHT →

Atonement

I could have sworn i recently posted about being attacked by flies but i dont find it here (oh, snap, i must have put it in my book and it was probably one of the things i took out in that careless edit.) I am going through atonement after carelessly hurting my son just when … Continue reading Atonement →

The Damage

After seeing Sister M. today i have been in a long slow burn if refuting my own suspicions of sexual impropriety WITHOUT turnibg to somebody in authority--been there, done that; in the end i relied on a trusted voice in ny own thoughts to reassure me and overcame the long weekend of worry. OF COURSE … Continue reading The Damage →

Today

Today, i am looking at finally overturning their Johns Hopkins victory. it was won with ill will and falsehood. Today Sister M showed me Godly love for my hurt places and now i know what the UNgodly past has been. "Tell her not to stimulate you," the CHILD psychiatrist said to me as i was … Continue reading Today →

The Jeannie Problem

It used to be “The Tracey T Problem”–all these years that’s what i thought i was fighting. Youll find it in my book. “Every Cloud…” (when it comes out; still waiting on California, a Pro-Life Novel.”) I touched on “the Jeannie Problem” in passing–i thought–while trying to figure Tracey T. Now i see that Jeannie … Continue reading The Jeannie Problem →

Get it got it good

Got it I thought i had the masturbation problem down. No. Just prayed the Divine Mercy Chaplet TWICE, first on my 10 fingers out back as i watched the cats, then sung aloud--counted out on my rosary beads. My cats were pretty clear that i was crazy. I have lost the tonality of my singing … Continue reading Get it got it good →

Retroactive Hope

God is putting crazy good things in the past where all hope was gone. Its crazy how he can do this. They say you cant change the past well then what is the word "retroactive" for? The oast lives within us and can be touched at any time. The Lord fixed the worst place in … Continue reading Retroactive Hope →