Sunday evening

Waiting on a call from an old friend. Made it to church today and it was very good. Recently i have been saying that if only i could have turned to religion instead of the psych world when i was young id have been much better off. And thats how i felt today. Like i … Continue reading Sunday evening →

Tuesday evening

I missed partial hospital again today but the group leaders okayed it as promised and, God willing, i will go tomorrow. It was terribly stormy this morning and i felt weak in my groin from stress and laying in bed. Now it is near time for bed and i am feeling much better. I went … Continue reading Tuesday evening →

Partial Hospital Program

The sleeping continued after my last post and the following Sunday--a eeek and a day ago--i went to the ER in Reading again. I was feeling desperate about the situation with staying here in my parents home. All that has changed. The social worker at the ER turned me down for a bed but offered … Continue reading Partial Hospital Program →

Deep Rest

I have been sleeping ALL THE TIME since church last Sunday (today is Thursday.). Yesterday i made it to RCIA and then i went out to the supermarket in the evening just for the sake of getting out and staying up. So this morning i was so tired out from that that i turned over … Continue reading Deep Rest →

A double post moment

This evening calls for two posts. Oh what a great comeback from desperate directions. Over the last week i came to experience the meaning of the expression, "up a shit creek without a paddle." I wondered, whats a person's rescue from that situation? Well, here is one; evidently a person has the necessary parts built into … Continue reading A double post moment →

Omg im glad to be back

Omg im glad to be back. I went private 6 days ago because i referred my ex to my last post and then got scared he would direct my parents to it as hes caught up in this psychodrama through the banruptcy proceedings. But now it doesn't matter: the shit hit the fan anyway. Si … Continue reading Omg im glad to be back →

Safety

51 years later, its finally hitting. Im going to have to rework my book. I noted yesterday on the last page of the printout if the manuscript, "i just realized that Tracey T (not her real name) was the breaking point of the ectopic pregnancy." A short while later i found my way to tbe … Continue reading Safety →

Grounding

This blog is a good place to come to for grounding. When the shit is getting too thick and i cant see in front of me, I make time to come here and the ground opens up in front of me. What a day. It was a struggle to get out of bed, but once … Continue reading Grounding →

Stuck in line at the opthalmologist

Its been an hour and 50 minutes. Im here for a diabetes eye check. Im realizing how badly my life is mortgaged to my health conditions. The diabetes is mild and i dont pay much attention to it. I just take the Metformin and try not to overdo the sweets and replace starch with protein. … Continue reading Stuck in line at the opthalmologist →

Ive been away

Life has been too exciting! And too precious. I saw my son last Sunday (its the following Saturday today.) My parents didnt succeed in dissuading me from giving him a ride back to his residence down near Philadelphia, an hour and fifteen miunte highway drive. It was a pleasure. I realized how much i had … Continue reading Ive been away →