Reunion

Its over. I didn't go. Im as sorry as anything. Even God is mad at me. He say i could have asked him to change His mind. He told me the better choice was not to go. We even had a rehearsal about this over an entirely different, much smaller question. Whether to take a … Continue reading Reunion →

This One–Updated

Its late at night and i dont want to go to bed, although ive taken my nighttime meds, a handful of meds that usually knocks me out within about 20 minutes. Then, im out till about 4 in the morning. I want to see if i can blog myself out of this one in the … Continue reading This One–Updated →

Here it is

Heres the score card on the reunion. My 'rents have taken me off my college bf's hands. After all these years! I fled from my father into this young fellows enbrace, he took advantage a little (whipped cream, cocaine, and trips to the erotic bakery in Greenwich village.( But oh my wasnt he a romantic, … Continue reading Here it is →

Fighting a deathly battle

It sickens me to report that my father is getting to me. McDonald's breakfast, they "forgot" the hash browns. They were trying to stage it, but i cut it short by going over to their side of the house before my mother got in from the barn where they park their Subaru SUV. I figured … Continue reading Fighting a deathly battle →

Hutton Reunion Winding Down Tonight

Its the final Dinner & Dance and im not attending. I backed out last Monday but they forgot to take my name off the list and ive been getting texts about the reunion events all day long since Wednesday! Unfirtunately i was under the impression until late this afternoo. That rhe charity airline tickets and … Continue reading Hutton Reunion Winding Down Tonight →

Hutton Reunion–no

Well i really blew it. I mean, i did the right thing in tbe end, God showed me this morning what to do and i did it but that doesn't always make the path easier. My mother has been on a rampage since getting a visitor to heed her tears last week, she literally made … Continue reading Hutton Reunion–no →

Hutton Reunion

On a brighter note it looks like i will be able to go to the 35th reunion this year. I havent made it to a single high school or college reunion all my life. I was a regular writer in to the Hutton red book which comes out every 5 years at reunion time for … Continue reading Hutton Reunion →

Johns Hopkins (pursuant to my last post)

I left out the hospitalization at Johns Hopkins Affective Disorders Unit in 1994. They bothered to send me there (because my husband was involved. That was the story with my MH treatment. After i got married i received treatment where before that i was ignored.) But they couldnt allow that it was for my sake … Continue reading Johns Hopkins (pursuant to my last post) →

Horse

Im finally getting it all figured out. My life in my family since i was 28 years imd has been dictated entirely by tbe death if my sister's horse. This is exactly as crazy as it sounds. They got a backhoe to BURY HER ON THE PROPERTY. (The horse, not my sister.) (Did i mention … Continue reading Horse →

My Weight

I remember despairing down in St. Petersburg, Florida, when i heard somebody say on the radio they just had to "lose weight and quit smokimg." Thzt was what it came down to. I dont want to dismay my reader with a report of my weight except to say that for a long time it has … Continue reading My Weight →