I am being kicked out if this place on the sourest of terms, and my blogging here is the biggest part of it. I consider this blog entirely safe and would not be doing it if it compromised anybody here, i have cone here to vent and keep my tboughts straight. My care coordinator got … Continue reading Freak Out
Category: Mental Journeys
Bad trip, updated
Staff has put the kibosh on my spring flight/spiral out of lifelong Satans clutches. According to them this us "believing in Santa Claus" "Shes in love' sonebidy saud, and they asked the person with the radio to change the music and rhey put on sonething liver curdling. This is a white anglo Saxon person who … Continue reading Bad trip, updated
Spring fever
Aching for ny husband. What else is there to say? Its been 5 years. Its been 18 years. How nany places and times that we left of off? Its springtine, the sun was warm today and we sat dotted along the picnic benches soaking in rhe rays. Love took flight at 600 smoke break, someone … Continue reading Spring fever
Strange Day
Grieving . Its here at last . Ive wrapped up my born child's life in a tidy ball and gone back in time and space to the two abortions, finally understanding rhat they passed through the Lord's hands. Moreover, that they passed through Satans. At last i had the sense to invoke St. Michael Archangel … Continue reading Strange Day
What a long, strange trip its been
About a half hour ago i checked the time on my cell phone and it was 1:11. Always reassuring to be reminded if Gods immananence in this way. I googled March 13, 1970, my sisters birthday, to see what day of the week it was, because i keep coming uo on Satanic coincudences involving her … Continue reading What a long, strange trip its been
Knocked Back to Last Year
The meeting went okay but they screwed me in the aftermath, i cant believe that they actually had my trust for about half an hour. Worthless piece o' shit. Thats how i feel about your precious lovely marriage. Narcissistic BARGE. So im scrambling for a place in time and finding one in last year where … Continue reading Knocked Back to Last Year
Discharge Meeting in 3 hours
Well they're getting me out of here but i bounced back in time to ride the wave. Its their loss. My caseworker is looking up alternate programs at the last minute but i will probably wind up at the cottage at my mothers house, at least to start with. I will ask to go to … Continue reading Discharge Meeting in 3 hours
Ophidian encounter in the ER
Well yesterday this desperate and disastrous week and a half closed out with an encounter in the ER with a nurse going by my sister's name--- on her birthday-- who slid into ny room in the mist ophidian way with easy words telling me that she had seen my call light on (i must have … Continue reading Ophidian encounter in the ER
Rocky Road
What a relief to have my blog to come back to! Its a small thing but its been a constant in my life for 8 years now. And what a long, strange trip its been. I am fighting off feelings of despair today, feelibgs i havent had since high school. For a moment i thought … Continue reading Rocky Road
Finding my Feet with God
A disaster on the smoking porch just now reminded me to find my feet with God before proceeding with this day, this week, this life. He was absent from my thoughts when my son was born and that was a big part of the problem that i had. Even though i named him self concmsciously … Continue reading Finding my Feet with God
Un.Bon.Mot 