I heard in my head last night that a genealogical search would show that I was not Jewish. That led me to feel so lost. I said to myself, and to my son in a text, "I got really pompous over thinking that I was a Jew but I'm suddenly realizing that maybe I'm not." … Continue reading Apology
Category: Pets
This Just In
So, its about David at Wernersville again. All of this. Its about the spell. The clincher was when I remembered the moment when I flipped out on my mother, after my return from the first stay at Wernersville, when David seduced me. I went home and I was terrified about him. For some reason, it … Continue reading This Just In
Its because of the weather
That's why I had to bring the cats in. I got it when the winds came up suddenly as I finished eating. Also, that was probably why the "seizure-gasm" at the Rite Aid in town last night where I went for my second COVID vaccination shot. There was so much static that I errupted. A … Continue reading Its because of the weather
Letter to my husband
First of all, I love you and adore you. Second, I am enjoying my cats. No worries. Especially about Joann. She was a very beautiful and a gifted woman. Being a Harvard graduate isn't the only way to be a worthwhile person. She helped me with that. Similarly, being English! So, I felt so OLD … Continue reading Letter to my husband
Sister Claire
I NEVER HAD A SINGLE THOUGHT OF HARM TO MY SISTER CLAIRE MURPHY IN MY ENTIRE LIFE. Through being entirely deprived of proper care after she was born and moreover being asked to care for her, despite a severe handicap of being kneed in the crotch by my brother, I learned a life of service … Continue reading Sister Claire
About Men; 3
Terrifying moments, as referenced in my last post: Spiraling road up the side of a mountain in Southern California, 1992: My car wouldn't start. I was on an afternoon joyride in my little, tan Dodge Colt. I had pulled into a gas and food mini-mart with a few small booths. A man approached me. He … Continue reading About Men; 3
Falling out of Your Class in America
I used to say to my ex husband that I could talk to absolutely anyone because of the places I have been. For instance, I used to randomly and idly talk to men hanging out on street corners by Grand Central Station in New York CIty, and the like. I always talked to foreign cab … Continue reading Falling out of Your Class in America
behar
Ian, He's the doctor in Quakertown who gave me a run for my money since late 2017.I remember the first time I saw him. He is a hunch back with a slightly distorted face. He has a hugebelly and wears wide suspenders to hold up his pants. He is not tall. The moment I sat … Continue reading behar
Psych Diagnosis, Contd.; 2
Routinely showering at night instead of during the day, which was onerous. Today I am on an incontinence day because of the continuous lower GI issue; for 2 1/2 years it has been in abeyance with the daily use of Miralax, truly a miracle after a decade and a half of sick, serious lower GI … Continue reading Psych Diagnosis, Contd.; 2
Domino; email to my son
Ian, I suddenly see this whole, lifelong situation clearly. Frank and Grandad came over here to the United States on a honeymoon on a lark. At least, that was what Grandma thought. Grandad told me he knew he wanted to stay in America. People always confided in me. I was like a receptacle for secrets, … Continue reading Domino; email to my son
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