Roe v Wade is down. My personal interests in that regard are personal now. Re racism: yeverywhere I go I see black men and women happy and in recovery. the cause that I thought would be my last is now first. When first asked, I disdained. That was on a psych ward in Tampa where … Continue reading MH World
Category: Suicide
okay okay okay
last year, before the last year that I spent in the hospital, my father, who was in a strange state after losing my mother, was puttIng me through little poisonings, generally of take-home fast food. Once I woke up in the middle of the night with diarrhea and i heard him say t o me … Continue reading okay okay okay
mysterious continuing attempted murder solved
lol!!! Who would have guessed? Everybody? generally it was poisoning but then I was left in the woods. I loved the movie of the musical West Side Story. There was a young girl called "anybody's." I would have been anybody's if I could but I couldnt even be that. My brother always protected me. I … Continue reading mysterious continuing attempted murder solved
My Color Sympatico
I was a closet racist but I am not any more. I love our new world of every color. before, I just didn't know. I was in a pretty funky condition when they found me out 8n the woods. after that everything is a blur. Even today. This is what preoccupied me in the woods. … Continue reading My Color Sympatico
prostitute
my father always made me feel like a prostitute. I recently joind the METOO movement for that and other reasons even today he comes looking for favors, he did it to me last night. In my head, when I was laying down in bed. It terrifies me to think that he would approach me physically … Continue reading prostitute
a lying picture
In other words, not. I love this picture of me, graduation day after winning the Math Prize but there was so much sick shit going around about me it was awful what I see about it looking through an adjusted lens is the evidence of organic personality disorder. For one thing I'm alone in the … Continue reading a lying picture
Judith and Bernard
...we're never a happy couple and my returning from California to bear my son was a nadir for them. They provided us with curtains and bottles and the loan of a bassinet; my living Grandfather in England sent money for a changing table: and my mother provided her blessed presence for a little while. then … Continue reading Judith and Bernard
the root of the evil
at the heart of our present trouble is my mother's slightly suspicious death in February of 2020. I reported my father for it but I dropped that because, as far as I am concerned, any shenanigans that may have been concerned were between the two of them. Recently it occurred to me that my sister … Continue reading the root of the evil
my mama
my mother was like a mama alien. I loved her with all my heart. there was such a sorrow to it. because for all practical purposes she died to me when she went to the hospital for the ectopic pregnancy on the day of my 5th birthday. I remember the loneliness I felt standing on … Continue reading my mama
UNME contd
well I tried to suggest something in that post that didn't come out clearly at all. my psychotherapy started in the height of the years of accusations of sexual abuse, providers of all kinds were being yanked from ordinary practices and daycare into jail; and were let out years later as innocent. I was terrified … Continue reading UNME contd
Un.Bon.Mot 