more on the Advocate

So, I am hearing in my mind that the Advocate is among those who want to sue me for using their name so much. Well. how about the two pigs on the cover of the board's first issue, standing for me and the publisher? We were there for your hire you assumed, David B wisely … Continue reading more on the Advocate →

Arriving at Conclusions.

my father deserves a reprieve from anything he has said and done since Hopkins thst was questionable as he was disabled by the stroke and wasn't getting any help. Hopkins put my mother in chsrge and she didnt hsndle it appropriately.. it is hard to imagine how things could have happened differently as things went … Continue reading Arriving at Conclusions. →

pain-taking

I won't do it any more. I fight back. I remember saying a long time ago that In the 80's it was about "farming out the pain." my father used to say it. my pain at that time was future-oriented. I had no idea where I was going or what I was doing. 8n 5he … Continue reading pain-taking →

MH World

Roe v Wade is down. My personal interests in that regard are personal now. Re racism: yeverywhere I go I see black men and women happy and in recovery. the cause that I thought would be my last is now first. When first asked, I disdained. That was on a psych ward in Tampa where … Continue reading MH World →

Fakes

I do not believe that Judith and Steven are dead. I believe everyone faked a bizarre suicue/homicide/apparent stroke death to get me out of the picture. They've done it before, they will do it again. they need to understand that things have changed. It would probably be very awkward to meet, i'm not the same … Continue reading Fakes →

New blog up and running

Un.Bon.Mot. I like it. I've been transitioning... I've been making a change here as reflected in the site title and also simultaneously it reflects the huge change in my life now free of nasty wart-mole. buying furniture and appliances as necessary for this place is fun! I was living as a cave creature. I have … Continue reading New blog up and running →

I have my life in order

Going to Wernersville State Hospital and everything it entailed was about how badly I fd up at Harvard-Radcliffe. The smoking, the not knowing how to shower, the neediness, the not knowing why I was there; and then to top it all off, getting involved with the Advocate magazine in the wrong way at the wrong … Continue reading I have my life in order →

okay okay okay

last year, before the last year that I spent in the hospital, my father, who was in a strange state after losing my mother, was puttIng me through little poisonings, generally of take-home fast food. Once I woke up in the middle of the night with diarrhea and i heard him say t o me … Continue reading okay okay okay →

things happen

Steve. Moved to manhattan; a divorce, an apparent suicide. Maybe we'll never know. me. 5 suicides 4 dead babies. too much. there's no comeback from this but I do enjoy the more normal habits of daily living that I have here which I never observed before in my life and I am grateful to my … Continue reading things happen →

A Lie in the Making

a week ago, more or less, I got it into my head that the shit poisoning could be helped by a tiny glass of sherry. Or whatever my father has. It was about 10 or 11 pm, my father was upstairs in bed. I take alcoholic beverage almost never. I poked through some cabinets to … Continue reading A Lie in the Making →