Because Tanner needs the chair. Now I see this. Claire was acting out the soul of the abortion that I had of Steve's baby all her life. It had just been conceived. I don't know whether I will ever be able to verify this time wise, date wise as to which beach trip this was … Continue reading Kneeling to post… →

it goes, even today I am first in line. If they don't get me it goes to Ian. If not him, it goes to the cats I just had where it goes next that I didn't see before, but it was taken from me. My mind goes blank. Tanner is here with me. He said … Continue reading Chain of abuse →

ive been a little lonely lately. (Refer to my Eleanor Rigby page. "All the Lonely People.") Actually that's not reaĺly it. Ive been very alone. You start to lose track. My father... I wrote a long article in the style of a poem in the 25th (?) or (30th?) class notes called "ode to my … Continue reading Lonely Losers: Aliens love us →

im so sor during the Sasha period, when i was being asked (forced) to put my mother's cat Sasha down, i stepped on a large toad that had been keeping me company on the smoking porch outside for a long time, and i stared to feel horrible about it but i said to myself, surely … Continue reading Abt the toad →

Current status My health is poor. I had an MRI done and I have wide spread arthritis. That's all I was told. The doctor couldn't comment on the positioning of my neck which leans to the side and I can't hold my head up. It's better when I go out and there are things to … Continue reading Abt Me →

you know, the ones they sell at pet stores to take home in a bag to feed to your boa. They seem to have no life or emotion. I used to take my kid to the pet store sometimes just to look (we couldn't keep a pet and it turned out to be a real … Continue reading little white feeding mouse →