I am here to make peace. I was a menace here 35 years ago. I was a person without faith. A rebellious teenager, an alcohol drinker and cigarette smoker, later promiscuous. At Wernersville State Hospital I was like a bull in a china shop. They said I ruined that place. This scared me to death. Then, I … Continue reading City of Reading →

starving. I got off a bus in downtown Reading. I was talking to people out loud on the bus. I was completely lost. I was about to get out of the state hospital for good and go to my parents' farmhouse home. Things would change for me. I was so thin. I started talking to a girl outside the … Continue reading urchin →

at Horsham hospital the woman outside at the picnic table described my actions with the little grey kitten (now I call him "Domino") as "maternal." It was very reassuring. I tried to breast-feed him. Because he was so desperately suckling at everbody's necks. Now, I see it as a forseshadowing of my motherhood. I was so desperate to breastfeed … Continue reading domino →

I loved my high school. It was a church school but I couldn't go to church on Sundays. It was too much. I stayed at the girls' school and hid under the bed. i liked chapel during the week and sometimes went to Catholic Church in town on Sundays with my two Catholic friends. I have happy memories … Continue reading a Connecticut boarding school →

...which was not my home. First if all, I did not eat. I stole food from the dining hall at night and monopolized the Senior coffee and pastries. I stayed at the girls' school on Saturday nights and stole food from the other girls' rooms. I usually skipped breakfast and I skipped lunch because the … Continue reading a boarding school in Connecticut →

abortion is subversive. there was a delight in it for a young woman in rebellion which she would pay for later in her life not knowing. "Pro-Choice" proponents forcibly blocked and brain-washed women who had had abortions. So, it is known to have been popular in the African American community for obvious reasons in this light. Also, … Continue reading abortion is subversive →

I finally realize he's gone and I know why he jumped. It was because of his high school Italian girlfriend's abortion. There were probably people after him in Maui. The cops wouldn't confirm or deny the report at first, or rule it a suicide. They found the body under water at the foot of the cliff … Continue reading my brother →

I was so desperate for beauty in my life. I found it in literature. I had a high school English teacher (boarding school) who took an interest in me. He and his wife were my teachers for 3 out of 4 years. I talked to him in my head. I would go to see him at his … Continue reading literature →

puke blowing chunks up my nose liquid diarrhea out my ass at the same time oh god the nausea I think it was brought in by constipation. My mother always called it a stomach bug. My childhood went on for so long. I was a horrible child. I had the wart-mole and the broken crotch and no … Continue reading Hell in America →

(the state hospital in Wernersville, PA) I was a person in the community there over two years back in the 80's after a very traumatic experience in which I almost lost my life. The first time I was there someone said it was a beautiful place, and it really felt that way. Here I am … Continue reading about Wernersville →