may i speak about a lover i had when i was sick and confused and very young? He was ten years older but unstable himself. Sicillian, passionale, romantic. His name is Gary DeLena. I pray he is still living. he was pursuing an acting career, He was the lead in the. production of rhe rock … Continue reading Lord? →

Well, with my last post i am finally kicking off about 2 1/2 (?) years of a social engineering effort based on my life wirh Sandy an ian, among other rhings and now i am rolling right off of that into a new phase--oh, i was mostly consumed with a passion for fixing what got … Continue reading whats next? →

i dont really know how to go here. i have two, no three critical things to write about; im being told to stop writing; and i cant remember what to say. Part of it involves my British affiliations, obviously a sensitive matter right now and for some time to come. And on a radically different … Continue reading unspoken →

can also have aspects of being autistic or an idiot savant. My father can be kind of like that. Like me, he is galvanized into action by important causes and at those times he is in every way normal and, moreover admirable. Unfortunately, since ths stroke hs hasnt been called and hs is very difficult … Continue reading Organic personality disorder… →

My son was born. i remember walking out of the hospital with Sandy carrying this precious treasure and not knowing if i was up to if.

ot can be a little like being mentally retarded.tuation. i read somewhere in a magazine about a woman ab.serving anither woman in some bleachers wither her husbsnd and her mentally retarded daughter. She was holdi g the daughter c deeply in check. The poor little daughter was obviously completely terrified, trying to look "normal " … Continue reading organic personality disorder →

i was in an Apartment in Somerville, i was livi g wirh two men and another woman. i was having an affair with one of the men. it was awful. the other woman broke the lease and l we ft. Another woman moved in. We were all from major universities in the are. Except J, … Continue reading cambridge, MA 1985 →

clearing from my experience at Haven Hospital in Reafing and now i am working on same for ecperience at Philhaven pofs 17 18 and 19 (?). I didnt really get that place but they let me put my alien puctures on the outside of my door which made me feel safe. also, back in my … Continue reading Beautiful Day →

dont know how this goes now. the floor has to be cleaned and even all the interesting paperwork that has already been removed is soaked in germs. So eo e came through here--numerous times i think--and took every pencil and crayon drawing, as I looked througg a sampling of it today it appears that that … Continue reading shitwork →

at the supermarket tonight. ts hard to write about it without being embarrassing, the simplest way is to cut to the chase which is that i am back on board with where i left the Horsham Clinic in Ambler PA which had to be July of 21 because there were fireworks. I was sane. I … Continue reading Mindblowing turnaround… →