re: inventory at age 60

is there a doctor--a psychiatrist--in Allentown who is willing to see me based on the profile I presented in my last post? please understand that I had a horrible experience the first time I reached out to a psych practitioner and I was never able to help myself after that. Ive been food for fools … Continue reading re: inventory at age 60 →

inventory at age 60

well now that I have settled the sexual abuse issue--it did happen--I was caught up in the worst season for sexual abuse claims, the early 80's, it was a craze and still is. I just wanted to know exactly what happened and maybe I don't know all of it but I know two key parts … Continue reading inventory at age 60 →

the abortion

I was always so troubled about the first pregnancy and abortion. why would anyone do that? He said "Let me come deep inside you, say you love me until the end of time!" well I was not ready for that but he had me pinned down. I said to myself let it be of free … Continue reading the abortion →

more on Berks County Prison.

first of all, Dapples. My mother never told me what happened to him so I never had closure. Ive been waiting on this. She had him put down because he couldnt hold his urine. That had to be what it was. that brings to my mind Sasha, another orange cat saved from the roadside, who … Continue reading more on Berks County Prison. →

yes it really happened

Although I do not clearly remember (they may have knocked me out) I have the evidence of my subconscious and where my lights went out on the Pagoda Unit, the "tan code" where I was safe if I was touching the tan-colored handrails, just like it was a grade school game. Then I remember the … Continue reading yes it really happened →

imitating the course of Saint Mary Magdelan

l learned that she was a strong figure in the early church. I am to be a figure for the New Church that understands the presence and influence, and also possible danger and threat, of ALIENS.on Earth and coming towards us in the Heavens. I have had a horrendous experience that prepared me to be … Continue reading imitating the course of Saint Mary Magdelan →

HARD TIMES

I had the worst time in my life over the Charcoal + constipation incident. Something so frightening and so horrible happened to me. I wound up on a bed somewhere st LVH Cedar Crest behaving in a bizarre way and yelling and screaming. It was so raw. Im not going to try to explain except … Continue reading HARD TIMES →

Haven and Philhaven

Haven almost took my life but then for a week I loudly asked for an emergency discharge because I was getting so frantic from the "gaslighting" and just being on a short term unit for so long. They helped me by getting out of there to another facility for longer term patients. But I was … Continue reading Haven and Philhaven →

Quiet

it's quiet today. Every step that you take is changed by the end of the reign of Queen Elizabeth It and the beginning of the reign of a king, the first male monarch in 80 years. it just goes to show that Queen Elizabeth had her ear to every heartbeat, at home and abroad. God … Continue reading Quiet →

Illness

INCEST. in my family as in many others, this has been an issue. I finally figured that it was my brother who got me pregnant when I was 13, not my father.