gaslighting

I just looked up the meaning of this expression the other day .and I finally understand what has going on. Its a specialized form of harassment and persecution. I just looked it up again to be sure of myself. it is of concern to the American Psychological Assocation and it is described as the manipulation … Continue reading gaslighting →

pain-taking; 2

Then, there's the physical pain, largely unreported. it started with Chelsea, last week. she gave me cortisone shots for my knees. I am largely out of torturous agony for the first time in 25 years. it affected my whole body. There's a story there about falling on my knees, over and over., Sle,ep has been … Continue reading pain-taking; 2 →

pain-taking

I won't do it any more. I fight back. I remember saying a long time ago that In the 80's it was about "farming out the pain." my father used to say it. my pain at that time was future-oriented. I had no idea where I was going or what I was doing. 8n 5he … Continue reading pain-taking →

MH World

Roe v Wade is down. My personal interests in that regard are personal now. Re racism: yeverywhere I go I see black men and women happy and in recovery. the cause that I thought would be my last is now first. When first asked, I disdained. That was on a psych ward in Tampa where … Continue reading MH World →

Alien world

I'm a thinkling. that's my status in alien world. humble and small. recently I heard "walk in love" on the radio and I adored this expression. we humans on this earth during this pandemic are thinklings walking in love. we have been led to question some certain basic things about our society. surely the Lord … Continue reading Alien world →

in the wake of the Queens death…

it's been a jumbled up time. I was in the midst of buying appliances and everything down to a freestanding countertop to make the place truly livable. I have been stuck here for 4 years in a condition I now recognize was abominable. Where there is no supporting physical structure, your mind, heart body and … Continue reading in the wake of the Queens death… →

Well…

they SAID the teeth matched but who knows? (On the body found at the bottom of the cliff). But that wasnt until 7 days later and I don't know if anyone but the police ever saw this evidence. He just went missing. He left a van with personal belongings and some changes of clothes it … Continue reading Well… →

Finally!

it is clear to me and if I'm wrong then Im wrong, that my mother IS STILL LIVING. and that my brother IS NOT. they were able to match his teeth to his dental records. my mourning, then, was not ridiculous and if he is still out there and he's laughing this off he's a … Continue reading Finally! →

iron might

I always remembed our visit to Fountains Abbey in England when I was 14. it was like you could see knights in armor on horseback crashing in from their last quest. I returned to Kent School, a boarding school based on the English system and founded by a Monk. I can't remember now which order, … Continue reading iron might →

Saints, angels, aliens and cats

the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit starting a new life, mourning Queen Elizabeth. trying to get used to the feeling of a King in power, it's so different. I have pictures of my English grandparents that I drew, I would like to share them. The last was my mother's mother. She died early … Continue reading Saints, angels, aliens and cats →