Shift

I pray that Jo Biden will step in to force Hopkins to pay off the money owed as my understanding is that the lawsuit has NOT yet been filed and time could be short. This would satisfy so many needs. I intend to pay off residents and staff here and at the two hospitals as … Continue reading Shift →

jo biden

Jo Biden a figurehead? For an ungovernable country? Too many individual groups, different character, color, or creed. For instance, in my marital family we are uniquely British Canadian American and military but also hi-tech intelligentsia. A minority of just a few. Because of my mental, emotional, and neorological issues, I have a "hi-lo" problem as … Continue reading jo biden →

Similarly…

i have to apologize for the "chipmunk" Nancy Pelosi remark ("the guile of a Nancy Pelosi"--better left unsaid.) It was several years ago but I sensed that it lingered. I realized that i have had trouble in my life with a Satanically inspired wit. Things sometimes just roll off my tongue that derail people and … Continue reading Similarly… →

“Injuns”

I do so deeply apologize for the use of this term from the 60's for Native Americans, in my last post, and for other slights in this regard. I did correct it, but the post had already gone out. I had kept using it as "Injuns for their injury," not realizing that it was offensive … Continue reading “Injuns” →

my mother

i forgive my mother because I saw her and I saw myself. I had a vision of her running through the woods barefoot in the dress she wore to my brother's wedding, or something like it, chased by the natives who wanted to skin her alive. 200 years ago. Her, utterly bewildered. Similarly after Ian … Continue reading my mother →

my sister Claire once upon a time

it's like that with her. At one point I thought that of course we would be friends again some day. I sincerely believed that my mother kept us separated in a way that would end sooner or later. Looking back, I see that that was unrealistic. I took her for granted--a little bundle of love … Continue reading my sister Claire once upon a time →

emancipation

Today I have emancipated myself from my family who never loved me. I practiced at age 16, when I ran away from home in Summit, New Jersey, gaining the lifelong ire of my father, who met me with a comeuppance I couldn't possibly understand at that age, and still can't. Recently, we called it "the … Continue reading emancipation →

bugaboos

I LOOK like a schiz but I am not one. I had a seizure disorder from the trauma in rhe ICU in '86. Tegretol helped but had awful side effects. I lost my words; I lost my math. I scrawled down on a sheet of paper, "I am too broken to write." Now i have … Continue reading bugaboos →

new person

Now the mole-wart person is gone. I will be changing my name. Instead I have only one problem, the broken clit since early childhood. The diagnosis "permanent clitoral erections" covers what was wrong with me all my life combining with rhe mole-wart problems to be locked inside in pain and frustration not knowing what was … Continue reading new person →

Whistleblower

temporarily homeless after a psych hospitalization that almost ended my life. For the third time. I was sent from Allentown to Reading for the 3rd time after volunteering at an Allentown ER. How could I be so stupid as to keep returning? And each time I almost met my maker but lived. Now I am … Continue reading Whistleblower →