About Men; 3

Terrifying moments, as referenced in my last post: Spiraling road up the side of a mountain in Southern California, 1992: My car wouldn't start. I was on an afternoon joyride in my little, tan Dodge Colt. I had pulled into a gas and food mini-mart with a few small booths. A man approached me. He … Continue reading About Men; 3 →

About Men

I have a problem with this. I learned in the shower that I am being healed. For some reason I flipped up my poor, heavy breasts. My ex called my bras "boulder holders" and that's how they became!!! He also commented that he likes SMALL breasts and SMALL hands and feet and I am a … Continue reading About Men →

I wanted to live

I left off my last post about about the overdose in November 2016 that very nearly proved fatal. My mother found me; They said in the ICU that I was about 2 hours from death. My kidneys were going into failure. It has taken 4 1/2 years to wake up. People thought that I wasn't … Continue reading I wanted to live →

Falling Out of Your Class in America; Part 2

I came here last night to post about something specific and then I lost it and forgot that I lost it. That is pretty endemic to this situation. Which is insanely complex. Hence the "Holy Mary, Queen of Stages" prayer. "Mother Mary, please continue to hold me and dovetail times and places broadly and minutely … Continue reading Falling Out of Your Class in America; Part 2 →

Falling out of Your Class in America

I used to say to my ex husband that I could talk to absolutely anyone because of the places I have been. For instance, I used to randomly and idly talk to men hanging out on street corners by Grand Central Station in New York CIty, and the like. I always talked to foreign cab … Continue reading Falling out of Your Class in America →

Daisy

I feel like Im coming out of the closet . Talking about the Kent Girls School on the "Hill Campus" on top of an Appalachian Mountain over the Housatonic River in Litchfield County, Connecticut. In the Valley was the beautiful, 100 year old Red Brick and ivy covered Boys School, I believe that the Girls … Continue reading Daisy →

figuring out my life tonight

...and its about romance and marriage and when and where the two collide and when and where they don't. I realized today that all my life I was in a thrall of a romance not even knowing it. It was hidden inside another mainstream college romance that everybody knew about that failed badly, partly because … Continue reading figuring out my life tonight →

more on state hospital

Ian, Today I am breaking through to a new level. I am recalling Magdalena. A woman at the state hospital, she was pure blonde, talked to herself all day long under her breath. She said she had a husband floating around somewhere in Germany. Or, she was from Germany. I cant remember. She was a … Continue reading more on state hospital →

At The State Hospital

I have talked about Mark at the state hospital; I have talked about David at the State hospital. I never explained that they were friends. Also, significantly, that the girlfriend that had him in a thrall from high school that he blamed for his Illness and was probably the cause for his seducing women and … Continue reading At The State Hospital →

Friends

Living in Berks County in the 80s I had many friends and a number of lovers that I shouldnt have. I have written here so many times about how that happened. I didnt know what I was doing, I had been PHYSICALLY HARMED in the ICU where there was already a sexual injury and I … Continue reading Friends →