Rift

Here there is a final rift with my father and I will be leaving; it cannot go another way. He is busted down to "traffic cop." I cant even remember now the reason but this fits. He had been going around everywhere having affairs with people in this head, even Sister M.; and my old … Continue reading Rift →

Sorry

Im sorry for all the people I hurt because of my sick sexual and emotional problems I had a bunch of human rights issues to solve in the MH world, race matters and the abortion industry. Also, I had a beautiful family to go to one day, a lovely husband and a son to raise. … Continue reading Sorry →

Sister M.

Well, this has been a bugaboo since the late summer of 2018, before my brother killed himself. I reported to my psychotherapist at that time that I feared that the nun who was counseling me for baptism was exposing me to unwarranted personal intimacy. Not sexual abuse; just an emotional affair. I understood that I … Continue reading Sister M. →

Road Kill

Its about Dr. Gross in Allentown 24 years ago. He just didnt understand. He saw it about the sexual OCD because I was carrying on with a male patient who had just been pulled from the river. Generally that's who I picked on, VULNERABLE PEOPLE LIKE MYSELF. Also because I had written a story about … Continue reading Road Kill →

So. Allentown

2015? I was back in my apartment after dinner there with my mother, father, sister and her then husband. My sister and I had both gotten the exact same red hair dye and pixie haircut completely independent of one another. She had asked my mother not to tease her about it. Something happened there, I … Continue reading So. Allentown →

About the OCD

First of all, Its going. After 33 years. Going back to when I really started coming apart, at the Lodge Program at Wernersville State Hospital in Berks County, PA, in 1987, when I was 26. Years later, I became acquaintainted with the Catholic Universal Prayer by Pope Clement XI which is very long and exhaustive. … Continue reading About the OCD →

Egg yolks

OMG im so sorry. I apologized to the community last night; but it wasnt enough. I need to explain myself. About the overdose, not in 2016. But the one in 2014 (?) (2015?) When I was living in South Allentown. My father had moved me there against my wishes. I had wanted to move to … Continue reading Egg yolks →

Needing the help

I've been picking up puzzle pieces, connecting the dots, dotting the i's and crossing the t's, resolving the disconnects; for a COMEBACK. This has been DECADES in the making. The disconnect I picked up on today that has everything falling into place is the urology appointment in Florida that got canceled because of a hurricane. … Continue reading Needing the help →

My Life

Right now my future daughter-in-law (that's how I see it) is a big part of my life. Unfortunately every time I turn around I step on her toes or she steps on mine and this has been going on for the longest time. She is Brazilian and I see that as significant and important about … Continue reading My Life →

About Harvard

Finally its past tense. I am held there now for hurting men. Because of the malpractice early in MY psych care that started on my leave of absence half way through my senior year, this never got addressed as it should have been. There was a very real reason for this abuse of men and … Continue reading About Harvard →