Baaad

This is for real they really do it. They tell people this lie. Im afraid to repeat it because somebody else will believe it. Two peopke i repeated it to didnt think that it was common sense that t it was a lie. She said that i put a metal pepper shaker IN MY VAGINA … Continue reading Baaad →

Journey into Night

So theyre going out to dinner with friends with heavy words on their minds. I spoke to my father further about the sexual damage and asked hin for a response. I asked him to be accountable--to speak to the ussue. He said for now just let me write the check. I have 2016 back taxes … Continue reading Journey into Night →

Today

...is the day after yesterday, the day to implement what yesterday said and i did! I talked to my father about my mother, Sister M the nun and Miss D the therapist. About the sexual damage. That as my father he should be the one man i can trust. And about needing "a bit of … Continue reading Today →

Watershed

So im sitting here and i prayed and i sat diwn in my mind with the pastor who closed tbe door on me and my talk of sexual abuse. And God showed me, yes. You will have to acceot this evl from me. And i do get words like this from him at times. And … Continue reading Watershed →

Nasty; 3

I am noone. I am nowhere. Just another sinner. The good thing about me is that i love my son and Satan and my mother interfered with that today. So its back to praying for the intervention of King Solomon the Wise. I have this.

Nasty; 2

Yes SATAN is NASTY. Last time i exoerienced an attack like this (see my last post) i couldnt accept that it was real because it was so cruel. Now i know that this is exactly what Satan does. He attacked like this a year and a half ago when i was an inpatienr on … Continue reading Nasty; 2 →

Nasty

Today, SATAN IS RRAL. Its been so long id firgotten. It started at the orthopedic office where i went for a check on my little.finger, which i broke when i went to the city nearby here wbere i received services 32 years agi when my family first moved here. I fell on the payment. All … Continue reading Nasty →

Resolved

Resolved and Retroactive; Miss S. of my last post is banned, locked out: where there is weeping and gnashing of teerh. She didn't know how to conduct herself at Hutton and she didn't know how to conduct herself afterward. Just another bumbling atheist. I waa afraid of her. She was planning to "write the great … Continue reading Resolved →

It is well

I made a junk edit on my 2nd book "Evety Cloud... " which is bringing fantastic change and insight but i cant bring myself to trust it. I cut out a swathe of type that had been written online, a bunch of seemingly endless Authors Notes and Introductions: and i dont have a hard copy! … Continue reading It is well →

She knows who she is and what she did

This post is about a self-identified "Stanford faculty brat." She was so boring and negative i don't even want to write this post. For her Hutton was an obligation. What a loss. I was struggling with the same feelings for heartbreaking reasons. For me that was a passion and a problem. For her it was … Continue reading She knows who she is and what she did →