On the theme of illness and insight, and being a prophet, i was taken for one at the hospital in Tampa in 2003 under Dr. Strangeman. It was an easy call to make. Later i said i was a genius, had a high IQ and they all got mad at me and i went into hiding. … Continue reading More on Ill Today
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Ill today
I woke up in the middle of the night and something snapped in this frantic, fragile place that is "me." I sat up thinking my equilibrium had failed. I tried standing up and almost lost my balance. Instantly i thought, appointment today, cant drive. Also had to 1 take a shower 2 clean this place … Continue reading Ill today
Red alert
I funalky "have* the situation here. I was a disciplinary problem for both my mother and my teachers when i was a girl. I was emotionally blind and non-responsive, progressively dull and insensitive because if the being kneed in tbe crotch. I was a pervert. But i was extremely imtelligent. My father, who had his … Continue reading Red alert
Critical moment continues
I have had to MAKE time for this b.s. She pulled a really fast one that jumped up and bit me today. She was being strangely nice last night. We hadn't talked like that since i was 16. It didnt lsst long. Then today the problem with the car reared its ugly head. By arranging … Continue reading Critical moment continues
Critical Moment
A turning point. My mother is trying to "prove through" an assertion that she is my son's real mother which, obviously, she cant do without harm, because she isnt and i am. She is the snarkiest and snakiest little English secretary. "Computers rule the world," she cried, over tea in my old apartment in So. … Continue reading Critical Moment
God Is
Eternity is happening all at once all the time. Thats how God works. So retroactivity is easy for Him and He holds the future in the palm of his hand. Thats how enormous His mind is. Awesome God. So live in peace.
Gotcha
My father was leaning over this way trying to grab ahold of me to hold against my mother and i refused him. Thats how it played out all these years. Im back at tbe dump looking to pick out a different life. I still remember that day in small town New Jersey south of Manhattan. … Continue reading Gotcha
Retroactive emancipation; more
Im thinking about it. Im remembering being lost along a highway in NJ when i was 16. With a heavy backpack and no map. Taking a ride from a man in a van. I could have been killed. * Let me out of the car." I said. And he did. On an offramp into a … Continue reading Retroactive emancipation; more
Miraculous Medal
Miss Marie gave it to me yesterday and it is like when tbe second plane hit the Wirld Trade Center and President Bush took notice. First she taught me the Jesus prayer, "Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner," and it opened up my world. Now i know that Mary … Continue reading Miraculous Medal
Retroactive Emancipation
Retroactive emancipation is perfect because it happens by law at 16. That's when i ran away from home. They left me at the house in NJ alone when they went on a two week hiking trip in New England. My brother took the station wagon and went to his girlfriend's house and i hadnt gotten … Continue reading Retroactive Emancipation
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