NOTE: I found in the past that speaking openly in this matter moved the conversation forward so i do not remove this post even though i hesitate to leave it here. When i wrote to the Times about reverse prejudice in South Flirida, there was a plethora of commentary about the Black mans low self … Continue reading Mending Fences with Black America: revised and updatedx10; Apology Retracted
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Doctors appointment
Im thrilled! I asked to see a doctor about my eye (and related female) spasms after posting like crazy about eye injuries and harm in my family, this weekend,and i asked again Monday morning. I had the worst morning ever this morning after wrestling with my pillow for hours last night, i just could get … Continue reading Doctors appointment
Roommate Woes–updated
I tried to get the day alone because partial hospital program was so hard yesterday and my neck and back and who knows what else were spasming last night and I woke up with bad pain. Well at least they are going to get me to the doctor as of this morning's report. So i … Continue reading Roommate Woes–updated
I’m back
There's been a lot of hoopla since last night about my involvement with my undergraduate literary magazine, i finally accepted that i had to do it because I was 'tapped' and it was an honorable thing to do. (I served as 'Presudent' for a year when the magazine was failing, because there was no one … Continue reading I’m back
Drained
My job this past weekend was to rest but i was drawn to blog for about 7 hours on Saturday. Too much happenrd in my mind, the cart started to push the horse so i had better stop before i hate my blog. Posting from a cellphone is tricky, it helps you pay careful atterntion … Continue reading Drained
Torn
I was torn in the van ride over to partial hospital program this morning. The driver was using the spoken GPS guidance to get here. I exclaimed, "wow!" And thought of when I held the bright blue cell phone all lit up in lights that i had in Florida thinking, this is the culmination of … Continue reading Torn
Cutting to the chase
My mother is napping so she can't come to visit. I wanted her to, because i am on my last pack of cigarettes, i suddenly discovered. That carton went by fast. So she and my father will cone tomorrow. I hate that "father," as it applies to my dad, is a humorous word. I remember … Continue reading Cutting to the chase
“Arghhhhh, my eyes!” CAUGHTx2 A Long Post; edited for clarity
The Lord is waking me up this morning with attention to my eyes. The title represents me some 20 years ago screaming on a psych ward because my eyes were spasming. I hadn't connected yet about the sexual injury in fact I'm just connecting right now that eye function is closely intertwined with brain function … Continue reading “Arghhhhh, my eyes!” CAUGHTx2 A Long Post; edited for clarity
Sexual addiction
I didnt expect to be back so soon, it was gruelling to post that last post on a cell phone. The typos get insane. Once again the smoke shack unsettled me: Big J. of the size 16 (20?) shoes was out there alone. I lit up my cigarette.Then I realized he was making slight grunting … Continue reading Sexual addiction
Immanence
Subtitled Very Important Post Problem on the smoking porch continuing to be resolved alongside my OCD, and the DO, DO NOT voices with inception when I was refusing Zyprexa yet taking Topamax, the Topamax I am taking again now. I remember saying to myself on the psych ward, 1, i can't die for my cat … Continue reading Immanence
Un.Bon.Mot 