Tremendous value in getting "pissed off" like that. (See the post by that name). First, the X-ville reconciliation I described in my last post, and now i have come to terms with my son and my horrible book. Which brings me to the end of figuring my suicide attempt. I self-published a book made up … Continue reading My horrible book
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All is Well
Resident T., who pissed in the sunshine outside the smoking porch this afternoon, was out there alone when i went outsude for a lonely smike just now, and ran inside when he saw me. On the way back in i felt corrupted, like I became the bully I have inside. On the way up the … Continue reading All is Well
New life at a personal boarding care home
So yes, in answer to my question, it is sometimes an imperative TO go out fir a cigarette. I wasn't sure. That was my pain. I was meant to go out there and take that as a warning. I thought I could post about my experience of Black America but now that I'm in the … Continue reading New life at a personal boarding care home
“Pissed” off
A male resident just pissed in front of me outside the smoking porch. I wasnt looking and then i turned around and got an eyeful. I am very upset. I have been struggling all morning with a post that wouldn't come out right so i finally ditched three posts and im starting from scratch. On … Continue reading “Pissed” off
Wow
Big things are in the pipeline. This morning I made up with the patient B. whom i mentioned in another post: he had a bad fall over the weekend so it was timely. I had forgiven him and repented if a bad attitude towards his clumsiness borne out if resentment. Thank God. On the way … Continue reading Wow
White Woman Gives an Accounting
Now i have my life complete. The last thing in the pipeline was the questionable involvement with black racial ussues, where I had determined that i sexualized Blacks and withdrew from that arena. I repented. But repentance brings good things. I have always been thrown into the race issue since marching for blacks with my … Continue reading White Woman Gives an Accounting
End of the Day
It has been a very funny day, funny strange. At the end if the day it comes back to my phone call with my mother. I called her after falling into a sin, thinking I would be safe, and then I wasn't. She got in a line about my shoes, akways a bone of contention … Continue reading End of the Day
Icarus
When I was too young i flew too close to the sun, and my wings of wax melted. I was dancing with my father, not knowing what else to do. I crashed and burned, Here i am on the smoking porch of a personal care boarding home 35 years later, awash in the embers of … Continue reading Icarus
New Innocence, Continued
God tells us to give the reasons for our faith, and it is delightful to do it. I was thinking back to the awful place where i came here to Pennsylvania after the divorce instead if following my dream of going back to the antique and beautiful apartment complex in Buffalo we moved to to … Continue reading New Innocence, Continued
New innocence
Finally I found myself in tears and held by Jesus. Other things went wrong besides the ones I mentioned in my last post "Ectopic Pregnancy," and i realized that i have changed since yesterday as described in ny post "Freedom," about a release from the sex with my husband which had continued in my mind. … Continue reading New innocence
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