Listening to the movie "Barry" in the backround about Barack Obama in NYC in the 80s and remembering glory days in the late 2000s when i was crucified for grandstanding pro-life over problack in the 2008 elections and afterward. I had made borh causes my battle cry up until that point. I was disabled and … Continue reading Family again?
Almost to the end
This is the denouemont. They are saying he tripped and fell. "We arent going to use the word suicide." I am trembling as i write. Because ive seen this before. Its the one sure bet they ever saw in their life, it involves downing me and its sheer bull. It goes back to when my … Continue reading Almost to the end
More of the Half-Lives of a Suicide
I don't know why he did it. Surely he could have picked up the phone and called somebody. I am going back in my mind to age 17 when I first desperately needed help, after my father tried to touch me. I was thinking about the money, why I have never had enough money, and … Continue reading More of the Half-Lives of a Suicide
Suicide moving into half lives
The gone missig and the shock of the finding of rhe body are passed. The ground zero of the pain of the loss is moving off. For about three days everyrhing held a reference to my brorhers death. I cried again today. But its over. As i prayed the rosary today i was reminded of … Continue reading Suicide moving into half lives
Suicide live online day 2
Actually we dont know exactly when it happened. I am speaking of my going public here about it. He we t mussi g over 2 weeks ago and his body was found in daylight hours there the day before Thanksgiving. Its been a slow burn. Thus morning at the Starbucks drivethrough the person ahesd of … Continue reading Suicide live online day 2
Not safe
My brother has committed suicide. He flung hinself off a cliff in an exotic location. I am too sad to be angry. He leaves behind his 18 year old son. And all the rest if us. It is a watershed event. We heard the tragic news Thanksgiving morning. He had been missibg for a week. … Continue reading Not safe
Reaction
I waited for a time, a time, and a time and a half for news regarding my "pro-life mailing" of "California, a Pro-Life Novel." (See sticky post at the top of this blog.) I googled the username abbyhillonline at some point and iwas directed to an old post, its been a while and i am … Continue reading Reaction
Unfair
My mother cultivates me to make me do good works if benefit ti others and takes the benefut of them to prosper my brother and sustervl and anyone other tajers. Removing the ownershio from me and guving me oain and punishnent because i am disabled. This has been goung on since u was a child. … Continue reading Unfair
Horrible
As this Thansguving goes down, my mither us still stealing my fire from long ago. Its horrible. She took a beating and all along shes hears something terrible happened to her. Meanwhile i got my tubes, my clit and my brain fried in the UCU and fell into a vegetarian stae. My mother was encouraged … Continue reading Horrible
Who woulda thought…?
Well here i am en pointe at 57---who woulda rhought it? Im backvat "Hutton, " age 17, 1979. To do a kttle tidying and re "point"ing. Arrived on campus for rhe furst day of Freshman week withoutva a change of clirhes, landed at Kingston airpirt and asked directions ti get to the subway and from … Continue reading Who woulda thought…?
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