My mother is an uneducated woman surrounded by HIGHLY educated, even POWERFUL women through her marriage to my father and for other reasons that i have to admit i dont really understand. She is endearing. Surely that isnt enough to let her make a hatchet job out of everyrhing i ever tried to do with … Continue reading My mother reinterpreted
In bed all day; 2
Well i finally got out of bed at aound 12 noon to take a shower and dress for an event this evening. I continue to have the feeling if the many layers of prayers that i was wound up in, falling off of me. God told me He liked the praying me. But im putting … Continue reading In bed all day; 2
In bed all day
It took all day to sort out yesterday's end -to-rhe-Novena-that-went-on-for-too -long. I stayed in bed. I went to a place where i questioned ALL my praying. For instance, i took it upon myself to pray rhe Rosary every day. Is this proper? Can anybody do it? And i snapped up every Catholic prayer i ran … Continue reading In bed all day
End of Novena to St. Jude; starting another Novena to St. Jude?
I have a feeling that i am going to be doing back to back Novenas ti St. Jude for quite some time. Im winding up the first; it has been breathtaking. It ends, as i move into the last of todays 6 prayers on this 9th and last day of the Novena, on a problem … Continue reading End of Novena to St. Jude; starting another Novena to St. Jude?
Vanity
Ive been waiting for this all my life--to arrive at the loss of vanity. I see that even as I am so is it coming through to my mother and dad. I looked at my new shoes yesterday and didn't get a gestalt and didn't resist this, and felt funny all day wearing them but … Continue reading Vanity
oops
yes I was poisonous to him. I had staff bumps all over my bottom when we met. He must have kept reinfecting from me, This is a disaster. I was dirty.
My beautiful marriage
1- me the WORST driver in the world he learned on the German Autobahn at 90 miles per hour 2- he got a survey engineering degree at UNB, the "UNB mafia" I was on the Hutton Dove literary magazine 3- I didn't wash when I was a child and was accustomed to scuz he had … Continue reading My beautiful marriage
one plus one equals one
Finally got it! It took a second after questioning whether I shold leave "things we turn a blind eye to" as a published post. I remembered the "scuz" of my childhood. The greasy film on my scalp, the thick layer of white scum on my teeth. My mother didnt attend to my washing and because … Continue reading one plus one equals one
Invoking St. Isodore of Seville–updated
He is the patron saint of the internet and the likely saint of my present plight, I am hitting on the rocks of the injustice surrounding my assay into the world of artificial intelligence in an introductory programming course in college. In the fall of 1981 I created a program which generated 2-paragraph essays on … Continue reading Invoking St. Isodore of Seville–updated
for the record–updated
I can finally demonstrate that my mother has changed toward me in a way that prejudices her in making judgments in the cases and situations of my disability. She was good enough to call an ambulance when she found me a few hours from death after the overdose November two years ago; but she did … Continue reading for the record–updated
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