It used to be “The Tracey T Problem”–all these years that’s what i thought i was fighting. Youll find it in my book. “Every Cloud…” (when it comes out; still waiting on California, a Pro-Life Novel.”) I touched on “the Jeannie Problem” in passing–i thought–while trying to figure Tracey T. Now i see that Jeannie … Continue reading The Jeannie Problem
Get it got it good
Got it I thought i had the masturbation problem down. No. Just prayed the Divine Mercy Chaplet TWICE, first on my 10 fingers out back as i watched the cats, then sung aloud--counted out on my rosary beads. My cats were pretty clear that i was crazy. I have lost the tonality of my singing … Continue reading Get it got it good
Retroactive Hope
God is putting crazy good things in the past where all hope was gone. Its crazy how he can do this. They say you cant change the past well then what is the word "retroactive" for? The oast lives within us and can be touched at any time. The Lord fixed the worst place in … Continue reading Retroactive Hope
Interesting Day: Medjugorge revisited
I brought up Medjugorge at dinner (its been over two weeks since my encounter with the proselytizer at the ER psych intake.) There was a healing of the sexual abuse by my father. He insulted me twice at dinner; i walked away. i got up frim dinner, left my plate and my cup on the … Continue reading Interesting Day: Medjugorge revisited
From a Prayer Site–Praying for Donald Trump and This Country
Please Lord let the dream be real, that a good man, an ordinary good man, stepped up to take responsibility in a difficult and dangerous situation where politicians had failed and left this country in shambles. Since before the turn of the millennium we have been in crisis: Politics as usual, but updated: sex in … Continue reading From a Prayer Site–Praying for Donald Trump and This Country
Sinful nature–healing
I am way ahead of where i left off in my last post. I have put up a private post about repentance of the bad things IVE done and how Saran is fuelling my preoccupation with the faults of others against me to blind me to my own faults to keep me from repentance and … Continue reading Sinful nature–healing
The Whole Problem
ByThe problem with this situation is a minor stroke my father had just after my son was born. He also had a urinary incontinence problem. My mother was responsible to handle both. She made the decisions and he signed off on them. The stroke, involving damage to visual processing in one eye, caused hin to … Continue reading The Whole Problem
Reading about sexual abuse
On Wednesday my therapist gave me a book on sexual abuse by a Christian author. It is very good and has already sugnificantly touched me. This comes at a time when there is a flip flop going on where they are being self righteous and i am being selfrighteous. Well guess who is right? My … Continue reading Reading about sexual abuse
See my last post: awaiting execution
"[As i look back over my life...] I was just another part of the dance. Its all i ever wanted. " With that i could wind up my blogging career or change the subject. When i was a young girl in high school nobody wanted to dance with me.. I remember the song "Dance With … Continue reading See my last post: awaiting execution
Awaiting execution; updated
Thats what i feel like. Nobody liked my post about masturbation. Its an unpleasant subject but its a huge chunk of ny history. A different subject, equally insidious, is the fraudulence of my pos ftture as a "Hutton" (not its real name) literary grad. I dont have even the most rudimentary grasp of English or … Continue reading Awaiting execution; updated
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