Eternity is happening all at once all the time. Thats how God works. So retroactivity is easy for Him and He holds the future in the palm of his hand. Thats how enormous His mind is. Awesome God. So live in peace.
Gotcha
My father was leaning over this way trying to grab ahold of me to hold against my mother and i refused him. Thats how it played out all these years. Im back at tbe dump looking to pick out a different life. I still remember that day in small town New Jersey south of Manhattan. … Continue reading Gotcha
Retroactive emancipation; more
Im thinking about it. Im remembering being lost along a highway in NJ when i was 16. With a heavy backpack and no map. Taking a ride from a man in a van. I could have been killed. * Let me out of the car." I said. And he did. On an offramp into a … Continue reading Retroactive emancipation; more
Miraculous Medal
Miss Marie gave it to me yesterday and it is like when tbe second plane hit the Wirld Trade Center and President Bush took notice. First she taught me the Jesus prayer, "Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner," and it opened up my world. Now i know that Mary … Continue reading Miraculous Medal
Retroactive Emancipation
Retroactive emancipation is perfect because it happens by law at 16. That's when i ran away from home. They left me at the house in NJ alone when they went on a two week hiking trip in New England. My brother took the station wagon and went to his girlfriend's house and i hadnt gotten … Continue reading Retroactive Emancipation
Sunday evening
Waiting on a call from an old friend. Made it to church today and it was very good. Recently i have been saying that if only i could have turned to religion instead of the psych world when i was young id have been much better off. And thats how i felt today. Like i … Continue reading Sunday evening
Tuesday evening
I missed partial hospital again today but the group leaders okayed it as promised and, God willing, i will go tomorrow. It was terribly stormy this morning and i felt weak in my groin from stress and laying in bed. Now it is near time for bed and i am feeling much better. I went … Continue reading Tuesday evening
Partial Hospital Program
The sleeping continued after my last post and the following Sunday--a eeek and a day ago--i went to the ER in Reading again. I was feeling desperate about the situation with staying here in my parents home. All that has changed. The social worker at the ER turned me down for a bed but offered … Continue reading Partial Hospital Program
Deep Rest
I have been sleeping ALL THE TIME since church last Sunday (today is Thursday.). Yesterday i made it to RCIA and then i went out to the supermarket in the evening just for the sake of getting out and staying up. So this morning i was so tired out from that that i turned over … Continue reading Deep Rest
County Access
Im at the County Services office in the nearby city getting ready to apply for a caseworker. Ive already gotten a dirty look. Im dressed to well to be receiving welfare. In the last week the full-on sunshine towards me in this vicinity has been abating. Im not getting NASTY looks but people arent falling … Continue reading County Access
Un.Bon.Mot 