Its the final Dinner & Dance and im not attending. I backed out last Monday but they forgot to take my name off the list and ive been getting texts about the reunion events all day long since Wednesday! Unfirtunately i was under the impression until late this afternoo. That rhe charity airline tickets and … Continue reading Hutton Reunion Winding Down Tonight
Hutton Reunion–no
Well i really blew it. I mean, i did the right thing in tbe end, God showed me this morning what to do and i did it but that doesn't always make the path easier. My mother has been on a rampage since getting a visitor to heed her tears last week, she literally made … Continue reading Hutton Reunion–no
Hutton Reunion
On a brighter note it looks like i will be able to go to the 35th reunion this year. I havent made it to a single high school or college reunion all my life. I was a regular writer in to the Hutton red book which comes out every 5 years at reunion time for … Continue reading Hutton Reunion
Johns Hopkins (pursuant to my last post)
I left out the hospitalization at Johns Hopkins Affective Disorders Unit in 1994. They bothered to send me there (because my husband was involved. That was the story with my MH treatment. After i got married i received treatment where before that i was ignored.) But they couldnt allow that it was for my sake … Continue reading Johns Hopkins (pursuant to my last post)
Horse
Im finally getting it all figured out. My life in my family since i was 28 years imd has been dictated entirely by tbe death if my sister's horse. This is exactly as crazy as it sounds. They got a backhoe to BURY HER ON THE PROPERTY. (The horse, not my sister.) (Did i mention … Continue reading Horse
My Weight
I remember despairing down in St. Petersburg, Florida, when i heard somebody say on the radio they just had to "lose weight and quit smokimg." Thzt was what it came down to. I dont want to dismay my reader with a report of my weight except to say that for a long time it has … Continue reading My Weight
Hell Month
April--Hell month--is finally over. It spilled over into today: i had the apex of Hell month on Monday, the 30th, wben i saw my lawyer in the morning, after doing bloodwork first thing, then a yearly appointment with my PCP to catch up on this Hell Year-and-a-half of continuous hospitalization+boarding home. It was the 1s … Continue reading Hell Month
Pride
Reading C.S. Lewis, "Mere Christianity." It is an absolutely fabulous book. In it i find ALL my father's faith and life issues laid out (he has agreed to read it when im done) and my faith life is laid out on the table like a dissected frog. I just read the chapter on Pride as … Continue reading Pride
Its over with my Dad
Like i said in my last post, zero tolerance for acting out sexually and acting out in general. I brought it up with my mother, the enbarassing outbursts, its happened three times. He jeers at me insanely if i bring up an issue with him, i dont even get a sentence out before he starts … Continue reading Its over with my Dad
Victory
Joined the Carholic Church today. Im still fighting with my father, this has been going on since Monday and my son alerted me this morning that hes "acting out" sexually, picturing getting a blowjob, to be specific. Its horrifying of course, but ut was verifued me when we were watchibg the news about rape and … Continue reading Victory
Un.Bon.Mot 