At Home with Travis and Tanner

I have exchanged 60 friends for the love of 2 cats. They are still sniffing me and my belongings. I explained to Travis about God when he crawled under me when i was on my knees praying, now hes head butting tbe pbone. Instant boredom. I knew i would face it. I thought there would … Continue reading At Home with Travis and Tanner →

Hallelujah

Leaving this place in an hour. As i say my goodbyes, make paths straight in the Lord and finish packing, it just dawned on me that my son has come to faith. He is living in a setting like this wbere it is natural to speak of God, and be did so to me in … Continue reading Hallelujah →

Last Day, 3

Struggling with the question, should i give out ny number? My son in my mind says No and i just asked God to tell me one way or the other and he said No. Women arent asking. 2 staffers, (women) asked, one if them isnt permitted, the other i will certainly call. Of tbe residents … Continue reading Last Day, 3 →

Last Day; 2

Well in the end all i am on my last day is a woman who had an abortion. I was going to say, a really bad abortion. But all abortions are really bad. I started thinking about it yesterdasy. It spoiled one if my goodbyes. Today, my last day, is Good Friday. I guess thats a … Continue reading Last Day; 2 →

My Last Day

Tomorrow and afterwards, i will be posting from my Mom and Dads home a half hour from here. I fear that i will become BORING. The high points of my day will be to interact with my sons cats. I most likely wont even be able to go to Clubhouse, the program for MH clients … Continue reading My Last Day →

Spooky Day

Back at the home, came back early this morning because the med techs forgot to pack my morning meds. Felt like a ghost here at first, then tbe day warmed up to me. I was dying to go back for good tomorrow but my guiding voices tell me to stay until the 31st (Saturday.) Mostly … Continue reading Spooky Day →

Trial Home Visit: At Home

Well i havent made my home here since the late 80's so its funny to call it home. I identified that i have a purpose here, which is to regain control of my sons life: they took control when they got the ridiculous restraining order in 2000. It permitted me to live at home with … Continue reading Trial Home Visit: At Home →

Trial Home Visit

Its been a gruelling morning. Ever heard the expression, "it doesn't hurt to ask" ? "They can only say no"? My father lives to defy it. I asked for a ride at 10 rather than wait until 2. "Thats a real imposition" my mother started, asnd handed the phone to my father, who continued, "totally … Continue reading Trial Home Visit →

Humdinger of a Day Today

Well i went to sleep immediately after an awesome smoke break last night. I quietly held my place. "Sit tight" i heard my sons voice saying to me in my mind over and over. "Youre the same as anybody else." I went to the sexual malfeasance i threw off of myself from back in the … Continue reading Humdinger of a Day Today →

Lifelong trouble

I just processed that a significant part if my life trouble came from my imprinting on my black roommate my freshman year in high school at Wayland School. I identified as black without realizing it, we were so close. And then at the end of it she said i was prejudiced. I was so confused. … Continue reading Lifelong trouble →