Bad Patch

Hit a bad patch last night after calling my EX husband on his mothers death in 2001, which was the beginning if the end. I was considered to be at fault for the blow up at the house in British Columbia, Canada, that plunged her into death at that time in suspicion and gloom. She … Continue reading Bad Patch →

Relief

The cute mentor took me to my doctors appt, he is a real sweetheart, i love going with him. He had to break it to me that it was an exit visit preparatory for my leaving Sunday, he had to tell ne to ask for all my scrips. In the end thr only relevant fact … Continue reading Relief →

Waiting…

Seems everything's sbout waiting. Right now im waiting for a ride to the doctor who is supposed to clear me of c diff, the gastro intestinal infection that has kept me locked up fir 3 weeks. Not literally, but ive been confined from all activities except smoke breaks and meals. Its been a lonely time. … Continue reading Waiting… →

Problem Solved

Couldnt have worked out better. Miss V cane out 15 minutes late for 400 smoke break all ready for me. But then tbe phone rang while i was smoking my first cigarette: doctor calling to confirm for Monday, which broke up the carefully orchestrated solution. So i dropped everything and walked uo to her explaining … Continue reading Problem Solved →

Walking on Eggshells

Now its just a question of waiting out the seven days until my discharge. No small task: thats 21 meals and 49 smoke breaks. Just had trouble with a smoke break after sleeping through one: its my acute sense of hearing. People think i am deep in thought when actually i am tuned in to … Continue reading Walking on Eggshells →

Alls Well That Ends Well

When one door shuts another one opens. Got a call from my old friend A. who proved through a life long friendship sealed with champagne in the girls room of Majors Dorm at Wayland School graduation morning in May 1979. I always looked back on that with pain for what followed. Now i recall it … Continue reading Alls Well That Ends Well →

Freak Out

I am being kicked out if this place on the sourest of terms, and my blogging here is the biggest part of it. I consider this blog entirely safe and would not be doing it if it compromised anybody here, i have cone here to vent and keep my tboughts straight. My care coordinator got … Continue reading Freak Out →

Bad trip, updated

Staff has put the kibosh on my spring flight/spiral out of lifelong Satans clutches. According to them this us "believing in Santa Claus" "Shes in love' sonebidy saud, and they asked the person with the radio to change the music and rhey put on sonething liver curdling. This is a white anglo Saxon person who … Continue reading Bad trip, updated →

Spring fever

Aching for ny husband. What else is there to say? Its been 5 years. Its been 18 years. How nany places and times that we left of off? Its springtine, the sun was warm today and we sat dotted along the picnic benches soaking in rhe rays. Love took flight at 600 smoke break, someone … Continue reading Spring fever →

Strange Day

Grieving . Its here at last . Ive wrapped up my born child's life in a tidy ball and gone back in time and space to the two abortions, finally understanding rhat they passed through the Lord's hands. Moreover, that they passed through Satans. At last i had the sense to invoke St. Michael Archangel … Continue reading Strange Day →