About a half hour ago i checked the time on my cell phone and it was 1:11. Always reassuring to be reminded if Gods immananence in this way. I googled March 13, 1970, my sisters birthday, to see what day of the week it was, because i keep coming uo on Satanic coincudences involving her … Continue reading What a long, strange trip its been
Knocked Back to Last Year
The meeting went okay but they screwed me in the aftermath, i cant believe that they actually had my trust for about half an hour. Worthless piece o' shit. Thats how i feel about your precious lovely marriage. Narcissistic BARGE. So im scrambling for a place in time and finding one in last year where … Continue reading Knocked Back to Last Year
Discharge Meeting in 3 hours
Well they're getting me out of here but i bounced back in time to ride the wave. Its their loss. My caseworker is looking up alternate programs at the last minute but i will probably wind up at the cottage at my mothers house, at least to start with. I will ask to go to … Continue reading Discharge Meeting in 3 hours
Ophidian encounter in the ER
Well yesterday this desperate and disastrous week and a half closed out with an encounter in the ER with a nurse going by my sister's name--- on her birthday-- who slid into ny room in the mist ophidian way with easy words telling me that she had seen my call light on (i must have … Continue reading Ophidian encounter in the ER
Rocky Road
What a relief to have my blog to come back to! Its a small thing but its been a constant in my life for 8 years now. And what a long, strange trip its been. I am fighting off feelings of despair today, feelibgs i havent had since high school. For a moment i thought … Continue reading Rocky Road
Finding my Feet with God
A disaster on the smoking porch just now reminded me to find my feet with God before proceeding with this day, this week, this life. He was absent from my thoughts when my son was born and that was a big part of the problem that i had. Even though i named him self concmsciously … Continue reading Finding my Feet with God
Quickie
Woke up so beyond all confusion this morning that things made sense a whole new way. At first i made yesterdsys post private but then left it as a precursor for todays. I had to go back to my sons birth to find solid ground. It was a scary, crazy time that im big enough … Continue reading Quickie
C difficile
A lot of change since i last posted. Ive been very ill. I have 'c difficile,' the highly infectious diarrhea bug. And finally realize i need to stay in my room. The first few days took me to a room at the Hospital. The first night night i was falling and delirious and gushing diarreah, … Continue reading C difficile
Arggghhhhh
Big crunch today. The place they were planning to send me gets horrible comments online and there's a lawsuit against them. I have a call in to in to my ex abouut Buffalo or Florida, and discussed with my father an interim stay at the cottage. ...who is amenable, and my mother is willing to … Continue reading Arggghhhhh
The Bruce Problem
They dont believe my problem with him is real. The fact is he is doing an actual malfeasance and i am powerless to stop him because my signal is defeated through ny ex husbands never-corrected sexual malfeassnce. Because he is so immature Bruce doesn't understand that what he is doing is wrong. My ex used … Continue reading The Bruce Problem
Un.Bon.Mot 